Mellifluous-Love

2011-02-26T00:55:00.000-08:00

I've moved.

2011-02-03T22:10:00.000-08:00

WE ARE THE NERDS, THE NERDS ARE WE ♥

2011-01-20T02:54:00.000-08:00

Sesungguhnya aku amat mencintai insan-insan di gambar foto-foto itu. *points to the photos*

For they never fail to put a smile on my face & make me laugh like one crazy woman. I thank God for all this. Thank you, Allah.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. ♥

Assalamualaikum.

MY SATURDAY, MY WEEK ♥

2011-01-15T22:57:00.000-08:00

So yesterday, i spent the day with Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah. I woke up at 840am yesterday, feeling so panicked, thinking that i was late for school! Later i found out that it was a Saturday! -.- & so i couldn't go back to sleep and i killed time by playing with Macrep. In the afternoon, i was feeling all sleepy and tired so i decided to sleep back again but was stopped by a phone call. It was him, asking me to bathe all & wanted to go Orchard with me. & so i dragged. xD

So i bused and i trained to Bishan. There was a traffic jam! He waited for me for like 45mins !! I felt bad obviously! But like i tweeted, "Sesungguhnya matairku adalah orang yang penyabar." :) Alhamdulilah.. ;D We ate at Far East, Cahaya. As usual we had our favourite hotplate. He treated me. Awwwwww~ Then we went to buy Frolicks ! I treated him. Awwwww~ Hahaha. Wanted to catch a movie but zzzz~ All like so boring only. So then we walked around Cineleisure. Went to the accessories shop & bought two big nerd spectacles that kind you know. & we wore it straight after that. Hahaha ! Duhh, we were stared at but we didn't care. Lols.

& so we went to the neoprint shop & had our own "photoshoots". Hahaha ! I like all of his pictures. My pictures the background colour is different from his. Maybe its because of the colour of the top we were wearing. So yeap ! Then he decided to visit his friend who is working somewhere around there. & then we went to Wendy's! We planned to do something stupid la. We planned to give whoever served us the nerd kinda smile & we got a malay girl. So when she say "Thank you enjoy your meal", we gave her that smile & she almost laugh at us ! Ni la olang, takde keje, buat kerje bodoh :) But it was hilarious please !

Then he sent me all the way to Yishun & i took bus home from there :)

This week wasn't a good weak for me. I failed my HA, but i sure will do better for the re-test! I was of course disappointed but the support i got from the people around me, i felt motivated. & of course, i spent my time in school with my MELS & the SHS Club Members. They're fun and funny people to be with. Now, even though we might have some problems here and there, but i believed that we can only get through it if we work together. There are times when we misunderstood one another, & the only solution is to talk things out and solve it immediately. :)

Photos of this week ;)

& oh yes, im back in formspring! http://formspring.me/nasyaliza

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!

MEL & FSF ♥

2011-01-08T20:25:00.000-08:00

Hi! So basically for the past three consecutive days, i've been going for the NYP Open House 2011. But not to do duties but to support my very own idol, Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah & also, to watch the NYP Jam 2011 competition. The winner happened to be my senior, a year 2 nursing guy, Khairul Azree. He deserved it, congratulations to him ! I would also like to thank my MEL sisters for coming down throughout the three consecutive days to also support Fareez as well.

Now, if you missed the performances at the NYP Open House, do watch them as I've already uploaded them on Facebook. Oh & most of the videos are performed by him, i am sure you guys know who la. Haha ! So yup, i shall flood this post with pictures now?

This is MEL. On our way to Lucky Plaza ;)

The food is so so so delicious please ! The chili? FUHH! SPICY BUT NICE! I feel like going there again one day, maybe i should grab my family members. They planned to go here last week since they heard about this Nasi Ayam Penyet which is so popular.! ;D

I know in our minds, we kept thinking "Cepat lah amek gambar, aku tengah lapar ni" Lols~

Mhyyra . Eyymaaa . Lizaaa .

My favourite picture of them ;)

Faie . Suhaidi . Fareez .

The one thing that is common about MEL is that we are from Nursing. Now, the one thing that is common about FSF is that they are from Business ! Tell me, how cool is that?! ;D

8th of January will always be remembered, okay! ;) We should do this sometime again. Til then ..

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!

BECAUSE LOVE MEANS FACING YOUR BIGGEST FEARS♥

2011-01-05T07:09:00.000-08:00

L.O.V.E

2011-01-05T06:55:00.000-08:00

Ya Allah ...

2011-01-05T06:38:00.000-08:00

Allah itu Maha adil, bukan? Allah tidak akan membenarkan hamba-hambaNya menderita, terutama sekali jikalau hambaNya itu telah mengorbankan apa pun yang dia sanggup demi insan yang amat dia cintai iatu hamba Allah juga, bukan? Tetapi mengapakah ia seperti tidak adil? Walaupun beberapa banyak pengorbanan yang dia lalui, tetapi hanya sensara dan derita yang datang kembali. Mungkin, ini hanya satu ujian dan cobaan dari Ilahi. Allah ingin melihat ketabahan dan kekuatan seseorang itu dalam menghadapi semua ini. Tetapi hanya satu yang ku pinta Ya Allah, ku hanya ingin melihat insan insan yang amat aku cintai gembira.

Amin Ya Rabbal Al-Amin.

WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE YOU GIVE EVERYTHING WITHOUT THINKING TWICE.YOU DENY THE TRUTH,YOU BELIEVE IN LIES,YOU CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT HURT YOU BUT YOU STILL STAY AND SAY ITS OKAY.

ITS 2011 !

2011-01-01T07:35:00.000-08:00

Hi! First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR! ITS 2011 BEHBEY!

I spent my New Year Eve with of course, the people i love ! I went out with parents, sister & her boyfriend first before meeting with Fareez, Fauzaan, Khalis & Amira. We went to Marina Barrage & the weather was .. i am speechless & i seriously hate the weather yesterday but then again, cannot blame anyone, especially yang berKuasa. Played kites, guitar, eat, drink, played with bubbles etc. & then Amira & Khalis had to go, left the three of us. There was this point of time whereby Zan shared with me about someone & i strongly believe that a guy like him will find someone, his soulmate. :) The three of us stayed to watched the fireworks but in the middle, Zan had no choice but to go): So left the two of us. Fireworks was nice but quite far. Bumped into the lovely Samantha, she was with her boyfriend & friends. Now, pictures pictures. Not all :P

This gorgeous lady here is Amira. Thanks to her awesome camera that it captured many many beautiful shots and pictures. I love every single shots & i think that she is a very good photographer indeed ! & we both have something in common, we're nurses ! How cool is that?! (Y) I think i want to buy DSLR already. NOW! Okay maybe not now but i want one.

& then, theres this three very cool brothers who share the same dream, same passion, same talent. & that is SINGING. Their voice is a gift from the above(Y)

& then theres this one of my favourite picture! *drools* Anyways, do support him at Scape tomorrow for the Mr & Miss NYP competition. Admission is FREE! So do come down and give your fullest support to him. He'll be dancing HipHop (something that im looking forward to see) & singing (i have no idea what song, he said its a surprise). SO YEAH ! Tomorrow, doors are open at 530PM :)

My 2011 resolutions? Unlike last year, i only have one. That is to be better at everything. Im not asking to be perfect, just a little better than i am right now. ASSALAMUALAIKUM! :)

MEMORIES OF 2010 WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED ♥

2010-12-30T08:48:00.001-08:00

Its New Year's Eve. I don't know how to describe 2010. I can't seemed to find that one word that sums it all up. But one thing i know for sure, this year has been a roller coaster ride for me, a very bumpy one indeed. I've gone through pains & sorrows, sufferings & hardships, happiness & laughters and many other emotions, you name it. But above it all, i am indeed grateful, grateful with what i have right now.

I didn't get into the polytechnic that i want, which happened to be one of my 2010 resolutions. I didn't get into Ngee Ann nor did i get into Temasek. I didn't get the course that i want, Early Childhood Education, which also happened to be one of my 2010 resolutions. Instead, i got through into Nanyang Polytechnic & got into Nursing as my course, something which i did not expected, like seriously. I went through the interview for JPAE or something i forgot, for the Early Childhood course, but unfortunately, i did not managed to get through it. I was of course disappointed because i knew, my dreams of becoming a kindergarten teacher, was shattered into thousand of tiny little pieces. But then again, i had no choice but to just accept it because i left with engineering & design courses to appeal & im not interested in any of those two.

Next, i gained experience of working as a cashier and a flyer at Carrefour. It was definitely not an easy job especially when all you do is scan & scan & scan, put stuff in the plastic bag, open the cash register and blahblahblah but i've to admit, it was fun. I managed to make many friends along the way & i definitely miss working there. I didn't work there for long, only like a month? But then again yes, it was a good experience.

In between, i lost one person whom i admire. We were dating but because of my stupidity, from very very very very close friends to i don't know strangers? But we still talk though til now. But not as close as before. I admit, i tried getting him back in my life but to no avail. I was .. heartbroken.

Before school starts, i made friends with these ladies by the name of Eyma, Namira & Nisa through Facebook. I was not in the same class as them but they were very friendly to me in Facebook so i decided to make friends with them too. First day of school, i went with this friend of mine because i have totally no idea how to get there by bus.

I made friends with my classmates. Not to mention we were like the nosiest class! Then during Club Crawl, i met Namira & Eyma. They told me they joined this Academic Club thingy so i joined in with them too. There, we met many other new people, which happened to be the SHS Club members. We weren't that close with them at first cause we were the only year 1 students. But as day goes by, we got a little closer with them. Infact, we created Dysfunctional Family for ourselves.

Then came Prom Night. This guy by the name of Farhat Bamadhaj wanted me to join the Mr & Ms SHS competition and wanted me to become his partner. Not to mention, it was Azrin's idea too. I hesitated at first but i decided to join. Little did i expect to even win it but it was indeed a great experience & a stressful one too, especially when it comes to dance practice & i am talking about Waltz. Yeah, tell me about it. But yeah, it was nice.

& yeah, before i actually became one of the SHS Club members, i joined MCG, Malay Dance. But i quit after that. Malay Dance was one of my 2010 resolutions. But unfortunately, again.. I didn't achieve it.

Around the month of May, I lost someone who meant the world to me, i lost the greatest person ever in my life, i lost my one and only grandmother. I wasn't expecting it, it happened suddenly, my heart was shattered into pieces, of course, her children were too. When she was warded at the hospital, i didn't even concentrate in class nor in lectures. I'll tend to sit one corner and just ... cry. Because i was scared, i was scared of losing her. The night before she passed away, i decided to visit her even though i ended school quite late & i was tired. Little did i know, that was the last time i ever see her again, that was the last time i talked to her. & my last words to her were, "Nenek, ni Liza. Nenek cepat sembuh kay?" My tears came rolling down my cheeks as i kissed her forehead. I miss her, alot.

Two weeks later, we lost another one. My cousin's baby who fought for his life in NUH. I couldn't bear seeing him at that kinda condition. But, he is in heaven now. :') Both of them in fact. Oh Allah, make them the happiest people. Letakkan mereka di tempat orang orang yang beriman.

Later came Bandzout. My friend wanted to support her friend & i wanted to support my classmate. But other than that, that was when i met this guy by the name of Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah. Oh no, we didn't talked. We had an eye contact for like one second & he rolled his eyes on me. Yes, you heard me alright. & my friend showed one video cover of him & his friend. So i decided to add him on Facebook. Little did i know he was the guy that actually rolled his eyes on me !

& then we made friends. *cough* He invited me to his Hospitality & Tourism Party. What do you expect? I was shy like hell because i don't know anyone in business! & then after that event, we started going out and stuff & if i were to continue how we met and stuff like that, this post is not going to be my 2010 post! So i shall stop here.

& then i became even more closer with Eyma & Namira that i made up the MEL SISTERS. However, something happened between us in between. Girlfriends do fight sometimes. & then, they go back together. This is part & parcel of life, people. This is reality.

Then, came attachment at CGH. I was posted there. It was indeed the greatest experience ever & it was definitely an eye opener. To meet and see the reality in life. From there i realised, i love being a nurse. Because i feel a sense of happiness of having to be able to help people, to see a smile on their faces. But when it comes to theories etc, its not easy. But then again, i did not regret being in this course. The fact that i actually cried on the last day of attachment proved that i seriously love being there, taking care of the people there. & especially when some of the patients there reminded me of my late grandmother. :')

& then i met even more people, getting to know more stuff, going to places that i've never been before in Singapore & stuff like that. There are more stuff about 2010, its either i forgot it happened & right now i couldn't think about anything else.

But i assure you, it wasn't an easy ride. Life is definitely not easy. I've gone through alot of shits from what you've read. Of course, i went through happiness too. Sometimes, you can't be too happy because eventually, you know sadness awaits you. But i believed, this was what God has already planned for me, some just to test my strength. So i guess, just accept it, cause life.. that's just the way it is.

Im happy to bid goodbye to 2010. But memories remain forever.

The video includes NP Open House Pictures. However it was 2009. But well, its okay:) Still, i met many new people ;)

Assalamualaikum.

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2010-12-29T21:37:00.000-08:00

APOLOGIZING MEANS ..

2010-12-28T06:49:00.001-08:00

DEAR 2011 ..

2010-12-28T06:48:00.003-08:00

INDEED.

2010-12-28T06:48:00.001-08:00

AKMAL SYAHMI'S VERY FIRST BIRTHDAY!

2010-12-27T05:12:00.000-08:00

Currently uploading pictures of yesterday in facebook. In the meantime, i shall update my blog ! But first, let the pictures do the talking. I shall upload 1/4 of the pictures.

THE BIRTHDAY BOY! LOOKING VERY HANDSOME INDEED!

He made his appearance in the car. Sister controlled it at first but she failed! Hahaha & since it is near the swimming pool, very dangerous! So she passed it to my cousin, Hakim & so he controlled it all the way til he made his appearance at the Function Room.

Say Hello to the two host! Kekekeke~

& say Hello to the photographer as well as the host!

THE CAKE! Everyone wanting the #1 part. Lols xD

SURPRISE CAKE FOR THE DECEMBER BABIES!

Ni sumpah dah penat giler ! lols! xD

WE ARE FAMILY!!~

BELOVED COUSINS! LOVE THEM!

MR FUNNY IS FUNNY OKAY!

ME ; *laugh as i watch Mr Funny*

Hakim ; *gives me the -.- look*

Me ; Oh? Tak kelaka eh?

Hakim ; -.-

HAHAHAHA!

POLAROID IS LOVEEEEEEEEE :)

BIRTHDAY BOY WITH HIS PRESSIES!

I enjoyed yesterday very much. Being a host, it was a great experience. I like the part how i started the event with Fareez. We both said ; "Hello Everyone! Welcome to Syahmi's First Birthday!!" together at the same time. Hahahaha. On the behalf of my sister, we would like to say thanks to everyone for the help! The event was indeed a successful one.

Fareez had to go off early & everyone started asking me where he is xD & the kids had fun! I enjoyed playing with them all :) Adorable kids. & im sure they had fun with Mr Funny too! xD

Pictures being uploaded at Facebook. Thats all folks :)

Assalamualaikum!

I STILL REMEMBER...

2010-12-27T00:55:00.000-08:00

& IT WAS EPIC!

MY FAVOURITE QUOTE ♥

2010-12-26T23:51:00.000-08:00

Yes, i remember this quote. Its one of my favourite quote ♥

♥

2010-12-26T23:47:00.000-08:00

OHANA MEANS FAMILY.

2010-12-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

... & family means no one is to be left behind.

Hello sweethearts. Before you continue reading this post, warning eh .. NO pictures Booo i know right but hell yeah, there will be tons of pictures tomorrow ! Anyways today, wow ! I don't know how to describe today, but seriously serious, like seriously, almost everything was impromptu !

Actual plan was to meet up with Fareez cause it has been two days since i last see him. But dad wanted me to company him to Pasir Ris Pasar Malam there cause he wanted to buy that big car for Syahmi so okay i followed. But at the same time, Fareez on the other hand was on his way here too. So since he was quite far away still (i told you long distance relationship sucks! no? ><), i went to eat with dad at Afgan & there, i met up with him. We then car-ed to fetch mum and my two other aunties at Tampines Mall & we went to the pasar malam again. Me & Fareez wanted to split with them actually cos he wanted to eat at Asli Village but then suddenly, they talked about wanting to eat GongGong at East Coast. Since i didn't eat that for so long already, i seriously wanted to go. So okay, we bought the car & had the motorcycle for free. & did i mention, there was this one ball shooting game which was i don't know.. you have this feeling of you seriously wanted to try. Fareez & dad seriously wanted to try & guess what? Dad really tried ! We thought we knew the tricks but HAHAHA, Fareez & i helped him but teeeeet, failed. Susah hor !

So we bought them & then we went to sister's place to put those vehicles there. That was when he met my bro-in-law for the first time & their first conversation was .. My bro-in-law said "Wah tall ah." Hahaha. I wanted to laugh actually but i didn't so yeah. Then we car-ed to pasar malam again. This time just my dad, fareez & myself. In the car, we had this funny conversation. Dad was hilarious please! Okay, lets just skipped some parts because this post is going to be a long one if i don't cut it short.

In the end, we had a great time eating, laughing, joking whatever at East Coast. Sister & her boyf, Abg Afham came too. We planned to do Hi-5 tomorrow but the guys aren't supportive. Booo ! Haha. But thats okay, because i wouldn't want to do that either. LOLS ! Being a host is enough. So tomorrow my partner for hosting is either Fareez or sister. Well, they take turns. Abang Afham, tukang photographer with DSLR.

& too bad Fareez can't stay longer tomorrow cause he himself have family chalet. He invited me but im way to shy to meet his family & etc. Heh, seriously way way way to shy. Not ready larhs. But im loving the fact that he's closer now to my family. Alhamdulilah. Thank you, Allah.

& yes im quite upset that the Gen thingy will take whole of his entire week next week. But heck, it's only a week & besides, as his girlf, i must always support him what? Whenever i sulk, he told me, who ask him to do this at the first place. & yeah it was me. So i shall not complaint! Heheeeeeeeee. Jia You

That's all folks!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh!

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS ........

2010-12-24T07:53:00.000-08:00

This is just one of many other days that i'll sit by myself & thank Allah for sending you to me, Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah. & this is just one of many other sacrifices you've made for me for you put me first before yourself. I lie if i say i am not mad, but i am more of speechless right now & very touched. I love you. ♥

MERRY CHRISTMAS! HOHOHO!

WHEN IT HURTS..

2010-12-24T06:02:00.000-08:00

Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough. And move on when things are not like before. For sure, there is someone out there, who will love you even more. ♥

Oh not, im not being all emotional during Christmas Eve nor am i feeling all down. I love quotes so i can't help but to post them cause they're so meaningful.

2 more days.

2010-12-24T01:48:00.000-08:00

Happy Christmas Eve !

Just one more day to Christmas. & 2 more days to Syahmi's very first birthday.

A week of holiday is almost over. School's starting, a new year is coming.

Isn't it just exciting?

Here is something random from me.

Wherever i go, be it blogspot, tumblr, livejournal whatever.

there is always one post about love.

Human beings can't get away with that one word.

& its a fact.

Wanted to plan some outing with MEL sisters.

But i guess it's not happening.

Other than that,

Im missing Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah.

Assalamualaikum!

I'VE FOUND MINE.

2010-12-23T18:04:00.000-08:00

"Throughout your life you will meet one person who is like no other ; You could talk to this person for hours and hours and never get bored. You tell this person things and they will never judge you. This person is your soulmate ; Your bestfriend ; Never let them go." ♥

I've found mine.

GROWN UPS.

2010-12-23T12:02:00.000-08:00

With love, comes hostility. Life can be difficult sometimes, it gets bumpy but with family and kids and things not going exactly like you planned, but thats what makes it interesting. In life, the first act always exciting. The second act, thats when the depth comes in ♥ - Gloria from the movie Grown Ups

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM.

2010-12-23T00:32:00.000-08:00

mother's love perceives no impossibilities.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM♥
YOU'RE THE BEST WOMAN I'VE EVER MET & I WOULDN'T ASK FOR MORE. :') I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH! I HOPE YOU LIKE THE GIFT I GIVE YOU. BUT THATS NOT JUST IT. MORE TO COME, ESPECIALLY THIS COMING SUNDAY.

THE UGLY TRUTH.

2010-12-23T00:14:00.000-08:00

"Rule #4: Never talk about your problems 'cause men don't really listen or care." - Mike Chadway from the movie The Ugly Truth

♥

2010-12-22T23:51:00.000-08:00

MY LOVE. MY IDOL. MY BESTFRIEND. MY BROTHER. MY EVERYTHING.

2010-12-21T06:57:00.000-08:00

The title says it all ♥

Dear John.

2010-12-21T06:42:00.000-08:00

So there's something else I wanna tell you. Right before everything went black, you wanna know the very last thing that entered my mind? You. - John Tyree from the movie Dear John. ♥

2010-12-20T06:45:00.000-08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Omgosh i forgot to take picture for today! How can i forgot to take picture today?! I am so sad lah please But anyways, today was great !.

Supposingly, i had school today. An extra lesson for Nursing Lab & Health Assessment but most of my friends went for their own respective camp & it would be a total bore without them so yeah, i decided not to go. Actual plan was to go to school & after which, i'll meet him to have lunch or something but since the plan didn't work out, he traveled all the way here to Tampines instead, elder sister's place.

While waiting for him, i played with my two beloved nephews. The birthday boy to come is learning how to walk ! He is so adorable please ! So i accidentally fell asleep while waiting for him. & then one and a half hour later. Yes, it does take that long to travel all the way here. Long distance relationship sucks man! But anyways yah, he came & i fetched him. Then yadayadayada, watched Glee ! & then we went to eat at Tampines Mart KFC. I is not shocked that he eats alot. I know him very well already. After which went back to Kak Lily's house.

Kak Lily came home afterwards & told us whatever stuff that is going to happen this Sunday. Yes, its Sunday, i thought it is going to be on a Saturday. She also asked about the plan that we've planned. Plan that Fareez, Khalis & Fauzaan are going to perform some live performance. But it is not yet confirm. There are alot of party stuff & prizes & goodie bags. & Im going to be the host on that day, fuhyooo, sounds interesting, i can hardly wait !

After which, Fareez & Adrie played ... i don't know some counter strike game? Aahh, boys. I see them play only i headache sia Haha. Moving on, he played some songs on the guitar & practiced singing for Gen NYP finals. Talking about it .. Do come down and support him at Scape on January 2nd. Tickets are FREE so do come down & give your fullest support !

Okay, that's all i guess. Post that are full of words and no pictures are boring, i know ! & my MEL sisters are at mentorship camp now. I hope they're doing great, wherever they are now. & i think imma spent the whole day tomorrow watching Dear John. Can you believed it? I haven't watch it yet til today! Watched it half way with him just now. Booooo, nevermind. The main actor is hot man ! & he kept telling me to wait til his body become like that one day. The last time i remembered he told me to wait til his body is like Taylor Lautner. Uhh? Uhh? Haha ! Macam macam .. Thats all folks.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh !

In Fairytales ...

2010-12-19T05:24:00.000-08:00

‎"When I was a little girl I used to read fairytales. In fairytales you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted. In fairytales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot." - Taylor Swift ♥

SCHOOLS OUT! HOLIDAYS IN !

2010-12-18T13:51:00.000-08:00

Well, hello there ! Yes, i know my blog is kinda dead at times. Oh wells, let me turn it back alive once again, okay?! Anyhoos, I've changed my blogskin. I loikeee my new blogskin! Simple though. Okay, let me update some things that i've been up to lately.

Well, first of all. The GeneratioNYP Semi-Finals which was like two days ago? Yes, Congratulations to the Top 10 ! Especially you know i know we know who. Haha. Congrats, Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah! Well, i am not shocked actually that he could go this far. I have faith in him Videos are taken & uploaded by me on Facebook.

Okay, what's next? Oh oh ! Say hello to our new family member, Resky. 5 months old kitten! Daddy named her that because he believed that that cat is a rezeki from the above, InsyaAllah. Two cats in the house now ! But both have different characteristics. Butter is very active & playful, she bite & she scratch whilst Resky on the other hand, she's quite timid and shy & she don't bite nor she scratch.

Anyways yes, as you can see from the title of this blog post, it's the holidays ! & i want to spend it wisely. I still have skill test to worry about, you know.

& what can i say, i've gone through shits for the past few months but everything is back to normal. I am back to that happy girl now. Well, yes i am happy with my life now. Thank you, Allah, for that.

& before i actually click the publish post button, here's something i would like to say to my love one.

Assalamualaikum !

REMEMBER DECEMBER !

2010-12-01T06:47:00.000-08:00

Oh gosh it has been a long time since i last updated my blog. Dusty already huh ? Anyhoos, many things have been happening lately. & it is already the month of December. Then without you realising it, its going to be 2011. Wow, time do flies fast huh?

I shall not say much. This year has been a hell of a roller coaster ride for me. Yes, i can't wait to say goodbye to 2010, trust me. I guess it is filled with too many pains and sorrows that i couldn't take it any much longer. But yes, i am still here, standing strong. & besides, i still have those people who i can count onto or turn to. & i must admit, i really do miss my secondary school years because i have never encounter this much pain back then. But then again, now then i realised the true meaning of life. Well, welcome to reality, Nasyaliza Ahmad.

I promise to post whatever that i have gone through this year during new year eve. Be it good or bad. & i'll look back at my 2010 resolutions and see if i have actually meant all those expectations. & then, make a new resolutions for 2011.

Life isn't easy, definitely. But its all up to you to make it worth while.

Assalamualaikum!

FOR YOU.

2010-11-14T08:54:00.001-08:00

MIXED UP.

2010-11-10T02:23:00.000-08:00

Everytime I try to leave, something tells me to turn around. Cause how could I ever leave the only one that holds me down? Cause I know we can work it out, talk it out, stick it out. Everytime I try to leave I know we can figure it out. That's why I always turn around. Before you say something you know you'll take back later on today. Sometimes you drive me crazy but I love you, baby. All I ask is that you'll always appreciate me.

At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself. Talking to the moon. Try to get to you. In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too. Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

So easy to forget our love, the little things we do. Like calling for no reason, just to say the words, "Baby, I love you." I know lately I've been busy, but a second doesn't go by without you crossing my mind. It's been so long since we had time, let's take a day and make everything alright. Just take my hand, fall in love with me again. Let's runaway to the place where love first found us. Let's runaway for the day, don't need anyone around us. When everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it. What I have to say can't wait, all I need is a day, so let's runaway. Let's runaway, just for the day.

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, I'll sail the world to find you. If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see, I'll be the light to guide you. Find out what we're made of. What we are called to help our friends in need. You can count on me like one two three, I'll be there. And I know when I need it I can count on you like four three two, and you'll be there. Cause that's what friends are supposed to do.

To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause what you don’t understand is i'd catch a grenade for ya. Throw my hand on the blade for ya. I'd jump in front of a train for ya. You know I’d do anything for ya. I would go through all this pain, take a bullet straight through my brain. Yes I would die for ya baby, but ~~you won’t do the same~~.

With you is where I'd rather be. But we're stuck where we are. And it's so hard, you're so far. This long distance is killing me. I wish that you were here with me, but we're stuck where we are. And it's so hard, you're so far. This long distance is killing me.

How do I end up in the same old place? Faced again with the same mistakes. So stubborn thinking I know what is right. But life proves me wrong everytime. Taking roads that lead me nowhere. How do I expect to get there? But when will I learn to just put you first? I come to you now when I need you, but why do I wait to come see you? I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.

When I awake it's you that makes me strong, and I know that you've been with me all along. So many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart. With you life is so easy. Why do I make it hard? Taking roads that lead me nowhere. How do I expect to get there? When will I learn to just put you first?

I've been working hard so long. Seems like pain has been my only friend. My fragile heart's been done so wrong. I wondered if I'd ever heal again? Just like all the seasons never stay the same. All around me, I can feel a change. I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me. Leave the past behind me. Today my life begins. A whole new world is waiting. It's mine for the taking. I know I can make it. Today my life begins. Yesterday has come and gone and I've learn how to leave it where it is. And i see that i was wrong for ever doubting i could win.

What you've just read are song lyrics by Bruno Mars. Amazing how his songs happened to relate to my feelings? I've been listening to Bruno Mars the whole day today. He is one awesome singer. His lyrics, I am speechless. (:

Assalamualaikum.

Hello !

2010-10-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

Woow, seems like i've not been updating my blog. Life has been really awesome lately. & i've to thank Allah for that. Many awesome things happened. I can't exactly remember what i did one week before school reopened. But one thing for sure, i know that i went out with f&n 5. We went picnic at Siloso Beach. & boy, it was awesome ! Really awesome. We camwhored, played twister, tumbling bricks, water, etc etc. It was great. Unfortunately, i lost all the photos. :( I felt terrible. But my friends were really awesome. Luckily i still have videos. Videos were really hilarious. Uploaded it on Facebook so if you want to watch it, you know where to go.

Next up, i remembered going out with Fareez Shah. He companied me to buy my school stuff. ((: He chose my school bag for me & he chose the nicest one. He got sucha good taste eh. Haha. But the bag i just bought torn): The strap i mean. Boooo~ So anyways, a big thank you to him. Love him:)

& so like i said, first week of school was awesomeee ! Spent time with f&n, classmates, mel sisters, him etc etc. I remembered following Alex, Mani, Ihsan & Afiq to Library & Mcdonalds. Ihsan was dressed in Darth Vader. It was hilarious. Fareez & Fauzan were there with us too. I video-ed it. Videos uploaded on Facebook. So again, if you guys want to watch it, you know where to go. Haha :)) I shall upload some photos aye?

My lovely classmates. & oh did i mentioned we changed group & i simply love my new group! :)

F&N. They are awesome people !.

Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah. My one & only love.

& hello Butterscotch, welcome to our family. We promise to love you & take good care of you.

Assalamualaikum.

NO TITLE.

2010-10-11T03:26:00.000-07:00

I forgot to upload another video. Here it is!

Seven Days by Fareez Shah .

Im in need of a new laptop. Boooooo! :( Meeting love tomorrow. Yeayness. & Wednesday is going to be a great awesome day. & Thursday is books day! :D

Assalamualaikum.

KARAOKE OH KARAOKE.

2010-10-09T07:28:00.000-07:00

GONE - FAREEZ & FAUZAAN

MY ALL - FAREEZ & FAUZAAN

BETAPA KU CINTA PADAMU - FAUZAAN

TERIMA KASIH CINTA - FAREEZ.
Eyma kekek lah please~ Thanks love for dedicating this to me ♥

SERIBU TAHUN - FAREEZ & FAUZAAN.
Jangan main controller~ was hilarious please. ;D

This was yesterday. Was supposed to be the five of us actually but one paitao-ed. Hahaha. But thats okay :) We forgive him. So yesterday! 2Fs & 2Ns. We didn't expected it to be so much fun & so many laughters, seriously. If only i can upload just that one video... Hahaha. But i promised them i shall not upload that video. I just can't stop laughing watching it, so hilarious. Totally made my day.

Thanks to Eyma, Fauzaan & of course Fareez for yesterday♥ You guys are awesome i can't wait for our next outing. Next outing will be so much awesome-er. ;D & also, quadruple date soon! & also 2DAY'S performance soon too! How awesomeee is that?! So exciting. ;D

Assalamualaikum.

LGS & KARAOKE DAY YESTERDAY♥

2010-10-07T04:08:00.000-07:00

Obviously you people can tell which one is my hand and which is his right? ;D

Anyways, million thanks to Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah for coming all the way to Tampines & spent time at my sister's crib. yesterday. Basically, we watched Lagenda Budak Setan with mum too. Hmm, well the story was quite sad. Compared to Syurga Cinta, i still prefer Syurga Cinta. But anyways, can't wait for the part 2 of LBS =)

After that we karaoked with elder sister tagging along with us. Mostly, we karaoked Acha & Irwansyah's songs. I loikeeee~ Like i've said before, he's my personal coach & having him telling me where did i go wrong & complimenting me.. it feels gooooooood! Hahaha ;D

I can't wait for tomorrow. 3Fs & 2Ns. Come on. MAKE IT HAPPEN! If not its going to be a Boring Boring Friday tomorrow. :P

Assalamualaikum.

WHAT HAVE BEEN HAPPENING LATELY?

2010-10-05T00:51:00.000-07:00

Well, hello there. I realised i have not been updating my blog. As in, my blog is way too dull with no pictures and stuff like that. & yes, i did not even update about my raya outing with my secondary school friends. Okay so basically, i had fun. I almost forgotten that i didn't went out with them last year due to O Levels. No wonder it feels like i've not been going out with them for years already! Haha. But yes it was fun. Took many many pictures ( as you can see from my facebook, i've uploaded the pictures ). Thousand of thanks to Fareeha & her awesome camera! LOVE IT! ♥

Okay next. As far as i could remember, I went out with Fareez like few days ago after recovering from his Pneumothorax. Well, if it isn't about his Pneumothorax, he already gone to Genting with his Soundcard friends. So anyway, watched Charlie St Cloud and yes it was super awesome. You guys should watch it. Basically, the movie teaches us one very important thing. That is 'God gave you a second chance for a reason'. =) With that sentence, it can relate to 1001 things.

Next up. 'Double date' with Eyma & Latep. It was awesome. We watched Devil. The movie was quite scary, especially the sound effects and stuff like that. But yes, a horror movie with a moral story behind it. For me, the moral of the story is that there are definitely consequences that you'll have to face behind every bad things you've done. =) Also before the movie, we took lots of photos ( duh! Cos Latep is a photographer ) Million thanks to Latep, his awesome camera & his awesome editing ! ;D♥

& lastly, yesterday. Went to school with him for awhile to sent some form & then off to Pasir Ris. Ate & bowl at Ehub! Wanna see the results? Here it is ! & oh, treated him Swensens which i owe him like.. 3months ago i think? Muahahaha~ Anyways, yeah you guys might be wondering why we changed our names to Faris and Lisa. Trust me, i don't even know it myself! ;D

First game !

Second game! Dah tak semangat nakmain lagik. Heheheh. ;P

Tallie & Shortie. But i am not that short though. :P

& yes, i miss my baby(pink vaio lappy) ! D: I don't think i am gonna fix it. Sobz. & yes, Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah kept pinching my cheeks! His hobby now huh. I am not chubby please noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo D:

Assalamualaikum!

2010-09-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

Thank you Sofia for everything. I don't have to say much here. She have her say already and I have my say too. I do hope that after what I told her, all this misunderstandings between me and her would stop. But yes i know, between my haters, it won't stop. I don't know how to say this anymore. I accept the fact that you hate me and yes i deserve all that. If you hate me because of what Ive done to you in the past or anything then i am truly very sorry. Really, if sorry is not enough then fine, hate me all you want. Atleast i know I've tried. Assalamualaikum.

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERNED.

2010-09-28T21:46:00.000-07:00

Let me get this straight to you, i don't know if you're going to read this which i do hope you do. The way you wrote things about me on HER formspring is like as if you know me well already. Like for instance, you called me a SLOPPY FUCKING BITCH. Wwooww, you must have known me that well to even called me SLOPPY huh? Second of all, you mentioned that i should learn to be more appreciative to the people who cares about me. So, by mentioning this, you are trying to imply to me that i am not appreciative to the people who cares about me? You must have known me that well too, right?

But on the other hand, if you're someone i know, why can't you even type my real name? You know.. I've been wondering & see if you readers can even understand me & could tell me if i even make any sense. I suspected many people in this issue.

First of all, i wouldn't want to say its my blood who did all that stuff, its impossible because my blood won't do this kinda immature shit & they can just say it straight to my face. So, its not them. Second, my ex. Well, yes I have not been appreciative towards them & they have the right to hate me. But why can't they just admit its them? I mean, i would understand right? Especially after what I have done to them.

If i find out the person who wrote all that is a GIRL, i would really really be ashame of myself as a girl. Because why? a GIRL wrote all of those stuff? Pretty harsh for a girl you know. Tsk. In malay, sungguh tidak sopan.

& lastly, why would my own hater wrote all those bad stuff about me behind my back? Why not on my formpspring itself when i didn't privatize it yet? Why when all those haters came back & the owner of the formspring informed me about all of them? Its like as if she wanted me to know all of them came back. & why would the owner even bother replying to all of that when it does not even concerned her? I mean seriously? Don't tell me she wrote that herself & replied that herself to make it seem like someone actually wrote all of that but actually .... no one actually wrote that. Well, if you know what i mean.

Because, yes.. My ex was her ex too. I broke my ex's heart & my ex broke her heart. My ex came up with the reason that after i broke up with him, he doesn't seem to trust any girls anymore. (Well, i read her blog) So she have the right to hate me, right?

One of the above can be the answer. But if its not, if its someone whom i don't even know, then let me tell you this, i don't even care. Well, I have tried telling you to reveal your identity. I was disappointed that you don't want to reveal your identity. What was i thinking? Of course you wouldn't want to, because you didn't dare to tell me the real you. You're ashame that after what you've said about me, you scared that people will look at you & call you immature. That is why you rather keep your identity a secret & keep on calling me all this F word because you feel like as if you have the freedom to do so, like as if you have the 'power' to do so.

You called me immature but look at yourself. By you writing all of that, didn't it makes you immature yourself? I mean come on~

My adult friend told me to ignore all of this because if i fight back, he/she loves it & the thing won't stop. My ADULT friend advised me this. She have this MATURED MINDSET. So i am sure you're not an adult yet yourself eh? :) If you are, then well.... I am speechless, i don't know what to say. If you think that by doing all this makes you happy then go ahead continue for all you want. But don't think no one is watching you. There is definitely someone who is watching you & if you a Muslim yourself, i am sure you know who is Allah. Well, yes He is watching you. I may not know who you are, but i do believe in what goes around comes around.

One more thing, you hope that i'll die in a car crash accident what so ever right, well.. Don't blame me if it happens to you. Sebab kalau mulut binasa, dolat nanti anda kerna. Faham? :)

I am happy with everything that is happening around me. I've to thank Allah for all the happiness He gave me. & i hope it'll last til my last breath. Thank you Allah. & all those that is happening like haters & etc, i'll take it as a dugaan & cobaan from God, to test my strength. & Of course i must show Him that i am strong going through all of that because afterall, all those stuff just don't make any logical sense to me.

Assalamualaikum.

THAT SHOULD BE ME♥

2010-09-26T08:18:00.001-07:00

Hi, i am sure you will be reading this. Well, yes.. YOU. You know who you are. Would you do this cover for me please? I know you don't like Justin Bieber cause you kept saying he's gay and what so ever. But this is not about Justin Bieber. I fell in love with the SONG. So please, pretty pretty please? :D & then i can post your cover of the song up here in my bloggeh~
THANKS MUHAMMAD FAREEZ HEDIR SHAH!
Assalamualaikum.

HIM♥

2010-09-23T00:21:00.000-07:00

You know you’re in love when you can say anything to the person and you know they won’t laugh at you. When you can see their face when you close your eyes. When you can still feel their arms around you, holding you, long after they are gone. When you can still taste their kiss after you have said good-bye. You can tell you’re in love when you miss them before they are gone, when their voice lingers in your ears, when their presence eases any pain, when their name sends chills down your spine, when they are the only thing you can think about. You know you’re in love when you can see all their hopes and dreams and their soul when you look into their eyes. When they call you at four in the morning and say, “I love you”, and mean it. When your tears stain not only their shirt, but also their heart. When they are hurt just because of these tears. When even a simple chore done with them can become a lasting memory. Ultimately, you know you’re in love when you can’t imagine living without them, and can’t figure how you did it before you knew them. When they fulfill every need and without them, you are incomplete. The love of someone else completes the heart, and soul, and mind all at once.

You are the single most important person in my life. One thing I have come to realize is that love is not always happiness. There are tears, anger, confusion, fears, but at the same time there are smiles, laughter, joys, and understanding. All of those things can happen. That's why love is such an emotional thing. You can feel so many different emotions at the same time. That's why it's so overwhelming. But I know one thing ... I would not take back any single thing. Everything that has happened between us happened for some reason. And us being strong and making it through this, it only shows that our love is strong enough to last a lifetime.

It's just great having someone like that in my life. I don’t know what it is about him, but everything goes perfect when he's around ... and I'm happy just being there, I'm happy just knowing him. I think he's worth more then any amount for any present I could buy him. I owe him so much more then he knows. Every time that I thought that I couldn’t get through something in my life, I thought of him and I didn’t have to focus on the pain anymore ... and every other thing that sucked, I thought of him and everything was suddenly better.

One thing I have come to realise is that love is not always happiness. There are tears, anger, confusion, fears, but at the same time there are smiles, laughter, joys and understanding. All of those things can happen. That's why love is such an emotional thing. Nobody said it'd be easy. It's just something that is worth going through.

Assalamualaikum.

AWESOME SUNDAY ♥

2010-09-19T21:16:00.000-07:00

Today, Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah spent his Sunday at my sister's house with my family, relatives, aunts, uncles, cousins, niece & nephews. :) Yeayness. I couldn't be more happier to see that he could actually clicked with my family. Here's how it started.

My elder sister & i was planning to karaoke together when my elder sister asked me to ajak-ed him to come here & karaoke with us. I told her that Fareez might have plans today but to be confirm, i called him. I called him around 2 in the afternoon & he picked up the phone with his sleepy voice. Yes, he was waken up by my call. Told him about my elder sister ajaked him here & he told me he'll call again later to confirm. He called telling me he's coming. :)

The kids were asleep when he came. Sister wanted me to buy fire crackers(?) & ice cream at the shop nearby so i went with him. We came back & started to karaoke-ed. :) Little did i know my relatives were coming so i was shocked when i heard Assalamualaikum. We karaoke-ed for awhile & stopped at it was Maghrib. Later we chilled at Adrie's room & i planned to make a cover with Fareez. A song called Cinta Kita, with the help of my very own cousin, Hakim the guitarist. But it didn't turned out well because Hakim kept playing the wrong notes & i just couldn't get the right keys. BUT! Somehow, Fareez helped me throughout. Therefore, he's my personal vocal coach now. :)

We continued to karaoke again later together with second sister and abang afham. :) Later, the elder people turned to sing, enough of young people singing already. So we, together with the small kids played bunga api :) Nyehehehehee~ Later, we chilled at Adrie's room again.

Did i mentioned, Fareez looked happy when my aunt who is an actress talked to him. Muahahaha~ So funny. I overheard she told my mum that she find him handsome too. Hahahaha. & when my uncle asked Fareez to sing 60an song, Fareez's face was priceless. Haha :D What else? Oh, another of my aunt told me that we look alike. o.o Omgoshh, jangan jangan kite adik beradik tak? Jangan seyyy ! Hahaha. Tapi orang dulu dulu kate kan... kan.. pasangan yang wajah seakan akan kan.. akan kekal lama... Kan? Hahaha. InsyaAllah. Amin. :) Hahaha.

& yes, after they all went off left us. Fareez helped to clean the house abit. Thank you sayang. :) He shouldn't have because he's a guest but he did. How thoughtful of him. & he helped to take care of Syahmi for awhile because i need to help my elder sister. My elder sister was sick throughout the whole day today & i pity her alot. Well, get well soon sister. I guess because she sang too much today. Nyehehehe :)

Im looking forward to have a singing lesson with Fareez Shah again. FOC. Siape taknak? Kekeke~

Assalamualaikum.

GONE BY FAUZAAN & FAREEZ.

2010-09-17T10:23:00.000-07:00

TALENTED DUDES INDEED! & I did this out of boredom i swear. Haha. It's soft yes i know. You need to plug in earpiece to hear it loud. Okay thats all. :P

Assalamualaikum.

SELOKA HARI RAYA♥

2010-09-14T05:39:00.000-07:00

I made a video specially for Arwah Nenek. A very short video but this tears wouldn't stop flowing. I showed my mum the video & she cried. Later, I showed my sister the video and she cried. My mum cried again too. I watched it like more than 50 times already. Still, this tears can't stop flowing. I really really miss her. :"(

But well, let's turn the frown around shall we?

My elder sister & Fareez singing Seloka Hari Raya. This was yesterday at my sister's house. Fareez stayed til like 10pm? :)) & today, my mum acted quite strangely. I don't know why she wanted to watch Fareez's video on Facebook. That was in the afternoon. Just now, she wanted to watch again because she said she never watch it til the end. Hahaha!. Mak aku dah berkenan ke dengan Fareez? :) I love her please. ♥

Gambar ni tak perlu pleaseee. Hahaha :P But look how close Shamil & Fareez were. Macam dah lama kenal gituh lor. :)) Awwwww, how sweet. I don't know why i feel so much happier now. Thank You Allah. :)

Assalamualaikum.

I LOVETODAY:)

2010-09-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

Many reasons why i love today. Firstly, because i ate at Cahaya Restaurant for the first time with Fareez. But too bad i chose the wrong food. I'll make sure i order the hotplate the next time i eat there! & yes, thank you very much dear for the treat. :)

Later.. Took train to Tampines. While walking at the interchange. Two men from .. Idk where they are from but they are the people who loves to stop you and ask for survey. So yeah.. They stopped us and one of them asked me which Cotton On shop did i bought my blouse at. & i told them i forgot. & for God sake, at all Cotton On shop also got sell what. =.= Later they asked which polytechnic are we from.. what course.. where we are heading to, how we know each other. Wah liao ehh =.= Hahaha. So random!~ Okay next.

As we were waiting for the bus, i could tell that Fareez was nervous. Teheheeee. So when we reached, little did i know my aunt uncle & cousins were there. But yeah, my sister managed to talk with Fareez. Second reason why i love today was that i finally can introduce Fareez to my family. & now, my mum will no longer have the mindset that im with an Arab guy. =.= So anyways, we karaoke-ed. Fareez duet with my elder sister. Later with me :P Then later he sang alone. Oh & i have one video of Fareez and my elder sister singing. Shall upload it soon yeah? :) My aunt and my uncle also karaoke-ed. Even my dad.

The third thing that i love about today was when i was singing Misha Omar's song when my aunt and mum said that i didnt -A the song. -A ke A- ah? Liza asal boleh ajer. As in they thought the singer is singing the song when it was actually my voice. HAHAHAHA. I suke sekejap you. Tak pernah pernah tau orang cakap suare i macam Misha Omar. Haha. Kay diam~

The forth thing i love about today was when Fareez was singing with me. But he didn't seem to know how the song goes & he made it his own rendition. & because of that, my aunt & my mum laughed. It was very funny. Well, i was glad he could make my mum laughed. :P

The fifth thing i love about today was when Shamil suddenly went to Fareez & asked to play PSP with him. & Shamil sat on Fareez's lap. I was touched seeing how fast Shamil can seem so close with Fareez. I loikeee~ :))

Well, mum asked me a few questions about him. & when he wanted to leave my aunt was like "Eh belum tanye soalan soalan lagik" Hahaha. My aunt pulak yang nak interview. Haha~ Then they asked where he lived. They were shocked, yes obviously, AMK is so damn far please. The sixth thing i love about today is when elder sister told me that when i sent Fareez to bus stop, they said Fareez's voice is nice. & when my elder sister told me one of them asked, "Fareez orang aper? Hidung die mancung" I couldn't help but to laugh! Hahaha. :)

Today is so memorable. I love my family alot. They are so supportive and I thank God for what he had given me & i definitely won't take it for granted. & yes, I've to thank my elder sister because if its not for her, today wouldn't happen. & of course, i love Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah too. (:

Assalamualaikum.

SATU HARI DI HARI RAYA ♥

2010-09-11T11:36:00.000-07:00

Unlike any other years, somehow, i enjoyed this year's Raya. I mean, apart from all the tears of missing Arwah, i could tell, the atmosphere yesterday was kinda amazing and hectic(in a good way that is) I don't know, probably it was because the DSLR camera was going everywhere and capturing every single faces. My sister & i were the camera girl(s). But i took most of the pictures la :P But sadly, most of the pictures were blur :( Some were very nice! Hehe. I got addicted to the camera that i just wouldn't sit down. Capturing the smiling faces of the people just makes you.. Happy. Now i know how it feels like to be a photographer. It is definitely fun. Really. Once i get my sponsorship, i want to buy that camera of my own. :P Heheh. Kay, next.

Another thing why this year was so different than any other years is because.. I would tend to sleep at Arwah's room because it was sooooo boring. BUT! Yesterday, yesterday was very memorable. The guys were busy playing the game of soccer while the girls behind watch them play. I interrupted the guys playing the soccer game. I kinda blocked the television when one of my cousin said, "Ape ni camera girl jalan sini jalan sana" The way he said it was funny i couldn't help but laugh. Little did he know i purposely blocked the television. Evil? Teeheeheee.

Also while sister taking my photos, my other cousin interrupted me & took photo with me. When i looked back at the camera, his face was a total matrep. & so i asked him, "Asal muke macam matrep?" & his replied was, "Amek gambar dgn minah muke kene mcm matrep uh" >:D He loves calling me a minah. Last year also he calls me minah. Like helloooo? I am not one please. :P & oh yes, he used to be taller than me but yesterday i was shocked, our height was almost the same. Which means, I GROW TALLER. Okay, maybe its true. It not that Fareez is shrinking but i am growing taller. Sharks, no. I don't want to grow taller! Please noooooo~

& as i expected my other other cousin asked about Fareez. She asked me if he's mixed. I said NO. When actually, he is. :P Hehehe. Little did i know he's mixed even though Fareez told me before that he's mixed. Sorry la! :P Haha. Anyways later she told me that Fareez is handsome. *Jangan kembang please* & my elder sister just knew his long name & she said it's nice. Yes sister, for your information, i love his name too. :P Hahaha. Okay what else? Okay next.

I realised yesterday i didn't ate much because ... yes i was busy taking pictures. While Fareez on the other hand kept messaging me telling me he ate 3 plates la, later 5 plates la. Omg PBG betul tu anak. But nevermind, i already know he's like that. As long as eating makes him happy, i am happy too. Just please don't grow fat & short because i have this mindset of when you grow fat, you'll grow short too. & another thing is because, i am growing taller! Pft. ;/

Okay, enough said. I am currently posting pictures at Facebook. So view it if you guys want to and im sorry for some of the blurred pictures. Im still in the learning process. Yes, it is definitely not easy taking photos with the DSLR. Before i end this post ...

Dear Arwah nenek, Liza berharap nenek tersenyum melihat kegembiraan suasana semalam. Walaupun ada tangisan semalam.. tangisan rindu akan nenek. Tapi Alhamdulilah, anak anak nenek dan cucu cicit nenek semuanya sedang bergembira dan kami amat merindui nenek. Kami tidak akan pernah lupa akan nenek. Bergembiralah nenek di samping Allah S.W.T. Al-Fateha...

Assalamualaikum.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI ♥

2010-09-09T10:02:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan sudah berlalu dan hari yang dinanti nantikan telah pun menjelang. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Mohon Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Yes, this year is going to be slightly different. We're celebrating Hari Raya without Arwah nenek. I am so sad i cried upon listening to Takbir Raya. I couldn't help it but to just think of her, wanting her to still be here with us. I really do miss her. I want to sleep today, not dreaming of anything else but her. I want her to appear in my dreams, me giving her a hug & telling her how much i misses her alot. I just want to hear her voice again and to feel her presence. But if only all this were to be a reality, but no.. it's just a fantasy.

Nevertheless, i hope she's happy right now, wherever she is. I know that she is safe with Allah. I'll never stop praying for her. Losing her left a huge impact in me & my family. If only we could turn back the time... but unfortunately, we cant.

Semoga rohnya masih dirahmati Allah s.w.t dan hanya di kalangan orang orang yang beriman. Amin Rabbal Al-Amin. Al-Fateha....

I couldn't be anymore grateful. I've got my happy pills around me. I still have my beloved family, my friends & of course him. This year somehow is special to me, for i'll be celebrating Hari Raya for the first time with the one and only guy whom i truly love. I am blessed.

Aku memohon kepadamu Ya Allah. Semoga kebahgiaan ini akan kekal buat selamanya. Amin.

Again, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Mohon Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Assalamualaikum.

May Peace Be Upon You.

SPECIALLY FOR YOU.♥

2010-09-03T01:40:00.000-07:00

Dear Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah Bin Fazally Sham,

♥♥♥

I know being in a relationship is never easy. Somehow, we will quarrel, we will argue & we will fight. Even if it's over a small littlest matter. Things like this you can never get away. It has been a month plus, i am grateful that we have never fought. I don't want to. But i know someday somehow we will. I am not asking for it, i am scared it will happen. But we both know what to do if we happen to fight one day. Afterall, life's never easy right? :)

Yeah, call me selfish. BUT! You're selfish too! :P♥

& even though we live like so far apart from each other, you're close in my heart :)
& please remember this..

I LOVE YOU♥

WITH LOVE,
NASYALIZA AHMAD.

CHOCOLATE CORNFLAKES.

2010-09-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

That was yesterday. Yes, who says i can't bake?! :D Since yesterday my elder sister & i were doing all those, she started talking about him. I guess she really is concerned if i am picking the right guy. Cos if not, why would she asked if he smokes? ^^ Well, one thing for sure. I told her if he smokes, i would have bid goodbye. xD But im grateful he does not. & well i found out that my mum thought i was with that Arab guy? FARHAT! I was like OMG. =.= Hahaha. & i love my sister please.

I have many things to talk about but now i forgot. I want to make a new post. :D

WARD 29♥

2010-08-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

Ward 29 is the best, to me that is. ♥

From bottom to top; Asyiqin, Mardiana, Samantha, Farhana, Yee San, Nura, Jocelyn, Mdm Asma, Priya, Audrey, Li Chan, Khairul, Ahmad, Jun Hao, Rayson & Fadhli.

Thanks again for everything. It is awesome knowing each and everyone of you. Jun Hao told me i looked familiar. Then he remembered he sat behind me during my lecture because he needed to repeat that module. Last day then he realised it was me all along. Actually, i myself also didn't recognise him. Haha! :P Really hope to meet you guys again. Three weeks with you all were definitely memorable.

It's nice to make friends with the staff nurses there. & did i mentioned one of the staff nurses quited this job to become a stewardess. Like wow. & she gave each of us chocolates. Awww, how sweet is that you tell me? Staff nurses there are all very kind, towards us. Some even helped us in our case studies. :)

Im actually very sad that it's over. If can, i want to stay in Ward 29 for the rest of my entire attachments but impossible i suppose. I dislike examinations. But looking at a brighter side, just three freaking papers more then hello hari raya. Even though it's not going to be the same like previous years, but well ... Sigh. Arwah nenek will always be remembered & loved.♥

Assalamualaikum.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

Goodbyes seem to be the hardest word.

2010-08-27T08:26:00.000-07:00

Am i glad to say that i survived the three weeks of attachments. :) But goodbyes hurtsthe most. It's the most emotional moment yet the most sweetest moment. Today is the last day of my attachment. Most of us cried. Especially when we bid goodbye to one of our patient, Mr. Selvaraja. We didn't know he would cry. I was shocked to see his tears flowing down his cheeks.

He told us not to leave. He told us that he want to meet us again. & i promised him we will see him again. We all planned to visit him when we have the time. :) We love our patients, we care for them very much. It was a very sad moment at that point of time. I bid goodbye to almost every patient there. If Atok was there, i could cry a river i tell ya. But i was glad he was discharged earlier. Yes, i took photos with Aliya & Zakahari. Also, many patients there told us to work hard & be a great future nurse. InsyaAllah, Amin. I will never forget this experience i had in Ward 29. It's so memorable.

To the Year 1 Nurses♥

Nana, Samantha, Audrey, Jocelyn, Priya, Li Chan.

& to the Year 2 Nurses♥

Mardiana, Nura, Asyiqin, Yee San, Khairul, Ahmad, Rayson, Jun Hao & Fadhli.

It's nice knowing each & everyone of you. Thanks for everything that you've done. Even though i have never seen you guys in school before, you guys are definitely fun to hang out with. To the Year 2s, thanks for teaching me quite a number of stuff. Especially Mardiana, Nura & Rayson. You guys are the best. Til we meet again, in school. Remember, during Hari Raya, we're going to the patients' house! :P

Dear Aliya & Zakahari, thank you for your company. It's fun when you guys are around. I love kids too much & i was glad i finally see kids at the ward because my ward was full of elderly people. Hehe. :) You guys are so adorable. Especially Aliya, hugged me everytime she sees me. How cute is that? I am sad to say i will not see you guys ever again. But InsyaAllah, kite akan jumpa lagik. Ingat pesan Kakak(kakak eyh, nak step muda aje), belajar rajin rajin tau. :) Sayang korang!~

To Ms Marlini, Mdm Asma, Ms Fadilah & Dr. Aziz, thanks for everything. Your guidance are much appreciated. & Mdm Asma, your advice to get married & not be single will always be remembered. Hahaha. :P Awesome teachers. Hope to meet them in school. & Ms Marlini, see you next semester? InsyaAllah, depends on what ward i get. I hope to get Ward 29 again though. :P Hehehe. Dr. Aziz, the most friendliest & funniest doctor i've ever met! :P

Being a nurse has taught me many good values about life. Being understanding, patience, wise, alert, responsible, caring & etc. Even though i was thrown into this course, as i thought back, it wasn't that bad afterall. Yes, it gets tougher every year. But it all depends on us, whether we want to handle it or not, whether we want to make an effort to work hard or not to be a better nurse. Sometimes i asked myself, why am i even in this course at the first place? But i've always believed that i was thrown into this course for a reason. I was thrown into the Ward that my late grandmother passed away 3 months ago for a reason. & this experience has taught me to become a stronger and a more confident person in whatever i do. I definitely love this course. :)♥

So! Anyways, tomorrow.. meeting love to study & then off to bazaar geylang to survey for hari raya clothes. WHITE WHITE WHITE! & of course, his favourite thing is FOOD FOOD FOOD! :P Haha what a pbg. But above it all, i still love him. :)♥

Assalamualaikum.
Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

IFTAR♥

2010-08-25T01:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i finally got to meet Eyma! Oh my gosh, you have no idea how much i miss her !!. Was so happy that i got to see her yesterday, seriously.

Anyways, let's start from the cherry on top. I went out of my house with my sister. We bus-ed to pasir ris interchange & there i saw him sitting at the platform. I was supposed to meet him at 1730 but i reached there at 1800 instead. Im so sorry :( Anyways yeah i introduced him to my sister. Belum ape ape my sister dah ajak double date to Karaoke same same. & Hedir told her he can't sing. -.- Nice try dear, stop bein humble, she already heard you sing before. :P

So anyways we trained to Bedok & there i saw Eyma !! :)) With her friend, Asyraf! :)) Then we bus-ed to Simpang Bedok & the food was sooooooo long, especially mine! Ayayai~ I didn't finish my Nasi Goreng Pattaya because i think i wasn't fasting & therefore, no appetite to eat. Haha. While eating, we talked a lot. Eyma & i as usual, we crapped & we laughed alot. The guys.. they & their blur & macam malas nak layan faces ! Hahaha, effing funny i tell ya :))

Then we bus-ed to Tampines Interchange & went separate ways while i was still with Hedir. :) He told me something personal about his life. & i was glad that he told me about it because he knows he can trust me. :) Trust is very important in a relationship, right? & i trust him too. & i love him. & i miss him already. I plan to go Bazaar Geylang one day but examinations are around the corner. Perhaps after exams? I want to go & survey for kebaya. White colour this year please. Actually, i wanted hot pink. But i pity Hedir. :P So our colour is white. Yay! :))

Pictures? Not that many though.

♥♥♥

I am so selengerr i took photos of the drinks, i didn't take photos of the food. Oh my gosh la liza. =.=

Anyways, two more days & then goodbye attachments hello examinations. Today, i said goodbye to my Atok. :( I salam-ed him. Thank God we know where he live & his home number. The student nurses plan to visit him during Hari Raya. Can't wait. But i am sad, i didn't ask nenek's number & i forgot where she live. :( I am very very very sad please. Oh wells, i am so going to miss all the patients there, including Aliya. Aliya is a three year old girl, grand daghter of one of the patient there. She is sucha sweet girl. I was shocked to see her just now. You know what she did? She ran to me & hugged me. How sweet is that? & when i asked her if she misses me she said she misses me. Awwww :) I was touched when she called me Kak Liza. She searched for me two times at the ward yesterday. Because i was to busy with my patients i didn't have time to play with her. What an adorable girl. Must remind myself to take picture with her. & OMG! I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURE WITH ATOK! Sigh! Nevermind, during hari raya then. :) Yay.

Assalamualaikum.
Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

SERIBU TAHUN BY FAREEZ SHAH♥

2010-08-23T10:25:00.000-07:00

FINALLY! ♥

hehehehehehehehe. *melted*

Im doing this because i want to show him what number 1 fan really means. :P

LOVE IS THE KEY TO HAPPINESS♥

2010-08-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

This post is going to be full of pictures. Pictures of my beloved family @ my elder sister's house. Pictures taken yesterday. It was the first ever time that my WHOLE FAMILY MEMBERS buka together this year. (Y) I thank God for bringing us together despite the heavy schedule each of us has. So here goes ;

Okay, so basically i was happily playing with my Baby when my sister asked to look at the camera & smile. So i did. Okay, next.

Then we decided to camwhore before buka. I took this photo. Im in love with the camera lah please. It's sister's & Abg Afham's(sis's bf) one. Jealous please.

Credits to my sister for this picture !. :) So nice right, especially the background.

& this picture is so nice la please. Credits to who? To me la obviously. Hahaha :P Main focus is adek Shamil. I asked him to stand infront. & he stood until he is really infront of the camera lens. That boy ah, very naughty! So naughty he reminded me of SOMEONE. HAHAHA. :P

While we were busy camwhoring, my beloved mummy was busy preparing for break fasting. Hehehe. I love my mummy please. :)♥

& the rest of them? My beloved elder sister, beloved dad & beloved brother was busy doing something else. But my elder sister was busy trying to get through with the radio. We can't break fast without hearing the video you know. & look at Baby Syahmi. Isn't he the cute little thing? He look like a cat lah please! I even meow-ed to him la. CUTE PLEASE! :)♥

I like this photo too. See, that's the camera that i fell in love with. & no, this was not someone who took my picture. This was me myself & i took picture of me myself & i. Its a reflection. :)

Please don't get sick & tired of looking at my pictures. Thanks. Haha! :P

Baby Syahmi, Abang Afham & Adek Shamil. Basically, i know this three boys is dearly loved by my sister. Abang Afham is like a part of our family now. He's like so close to our family. How supportive my family is, huh? to welcome him to our family. I wonder if my family would do the same thing too when it comes to mine? :P

& my beloved daddy who will always gives his daughters whatever we want. He's the best & the most supportive daddy i ever had. :)♥ & i still remembered what he told me. He told me to find someone that is "baik baik" & my respond to him was, "of course" :P I love him so much.

Yes, main focus of this picture is the iPad.♥ It's always with adek. The wallpaper also is adek's picture lah. It's like the iPad is his. He even said so to me. See, three year old boy has an iPad. Kalahkan seventeen year old girl! Hehe. :P

Nor Aqmar Shamil & Nor Aqmal Syahmi. They are the cutest thing ever & i love them very much.♥ Baby Syahmi can crawl & sit by himself already!. I can't wait to see him walk! Hehe. & i realised first nephew's photo wasn't taken. So....

This picture is quite old but i just want to include the brother inside. It makes me happy to know that despite the age difference, they're loving as ever. Well, but Adrie loves to disturb Adek. Come on Adrie, as a big brother, must show a good example to them. Well, he already did. He beat me in PSLE even though all he did was playing & all i did was studying! Hmph! :) (Y)♥

This was what we had yesterday. My family just loves this alot.♥ I remembered bringing this that was cooked by my mum to my friends birthday BBQ Pit that i myself planned & all my friends loved it. :) I guess i must learn how to cook from my mum huh? Cos SOMEONE wants me to cook for him. Habes ah Liza~ Haha. :P

Lovely picture, but only if he looks at the camera. I love Baby Syahmi! :)♥

How could i ever forget this. OMG! I miss them sooooo much!♥ D: God, when will i ever see them again? Whennnnnnnn ?

& i miss the guitar members too! Both pictures cannot see my face la. :( But the second picture. Can you see meeeeee ? Hehehe. Sigh, i miss playing guitar with a group of people. Inah plan to iftar together with the guitar members. im looking forward to it! Make it happen please! :D

& oh oh oh !!!

Did you guys buy this cover issue? HAHAHA! ELNAAAAAA SAYANG! I MISS YOUU :) Next month okay! :D♥

I MISS NR1003 TOO! I realised my class is always 3! Since sec 1 seyy! 1E3, 2E3, 3E3, 4E3 & NOW.. NR1003! Haha :D I miss you guys. 1 week more to goooooo !! YAYNESS! ;D♥

& of course, my beloved dysfunctional family & my beloved girls. Only God know how much i miss them. Sigh. I miss the laughters we had, the kecohness we had, hang out at the club room, EVERYTHING! D: I want to meet you guys soon la please. EYMA NURKALIMALLAH & NAMIRA AZMAN! ADEK RINDU KAKAK KAKAKKU YANG TERSAYANGGGG !. ♥ Kemanaaa~ kau menghilangkan dirimu~ ku~ rasa sayuuuu~ ku ingin bersamamu~ seperti waktu dahulu~~~ HAHAHAHA. :P

& people say, you save the last for the best. Hehehe :)

Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah Bin Fazally Sham, Nor Shaliza Bte Ahmad rindu awak sangat sangat. & you owe me something, you know? You owe me Seribu Tahun nye video! :P Haha. Will be meeting you tomorrow, my love :) & also with my another love :) Yay! Tomorrow i date with my LOVESS! :)♥ Miss them so much please. Aku~ Rindu~ Setengah mati kepadamu~~

I took hours to write this post! OMG! But it's worth it isn't? Hehe. Okay, morning shift tomorrow. 4 more days @ the hospital. Somehow, i am happy but somehow, i am sad. Will i ever get to see that Atok again? :( I spent almost the entire of my shift time with him just now. Seriously. I even fed him for breakfast & lunch. Clean his teeth. I fed him for more than 1 hour mind you. I stood up beside him. He told me to sit but i refused to. He said thanks to me so many times & that look of his face when i told him i regard him as my grandfather. Awww :) There's also one new patient who is.. Kelakar tapi seram. Hah! & i found out this morning one nenek who i used to change her diapers, clean her mouth, brush her teeth...... passed away this morning. I was shocked. Sigh. :( Oh wells, this is life huh. Today was rather fun at my ward. Im going spend my last 4 days to the fullest, & of course, spend as much time with Atok. :) Even my friends know that he's my favourite atok there. Hehe :)

Assalamualaikum.
Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah♥

2010-08-22T02:53:00.000-07:00

I dedicated the song Terrified by Katherine McPhee to him. & this one video about what a girl wants to hear to him too. :))

& im currently chatting with him now. I met him today & he went all the way to Pasir Ris to study with me. Hehe. Thanks for today, love. You know it's hard for me to be away from you for so long due to attachments & stuff & i'll try to deal with it. But the thing is now i already miss you. & i guess he already know that the first time i fall for him was when i viewed his video! :P Opps, & again i didn't tell him that i am going to post his video at my blog. Im waiting for him to send me his video that he sang Seribu Tahun. I melted i tell you. His GUY FRIEND told him that he melted too when he sang that song. OMG GAY FRIEND! Hahaha! :D

& did i mentioned. On our first monthsary, he gave me a surprise visit at my work place, my attachment place i mean. During my break time, i got a call from him. I picked up & he told him he's a level 1 & wanted me to come down. My reaction was priceless. I thought he was joking at the first place til i saw him with my very own eyes. He was sitting on the bench there. I was speechless. We break fast together at the hospital, QiJi. Then he told me he wanted to wait for me til i finish work. I told him not to but he insisted. Again, i was speechless but at the same time i was touched. So after work we walked to East Point & he waited for my bus. When my bus came, he surprised me again with a gift. It was a handphone's keychain pink in colour with an alphabet that says "F♥L". I love it so much! I ♥ you, Hedir. :)

& my sister terserempak with him & she was shocked to know how tall he is. Hehehe. I like the fact that he's tall. :)

Here's the video of him singing Usah Lepaskan. :)

& this is one of his original song. Quite sad la. I think those who is heartbroken will cry listening to this song. :) Titled Cinta Pertamaku. :)

Eyh awak! Im like advertising your videos you know. Your welcome eh. Hehehe :P Still i am waiting for your Seribu Tahun nye video. Kay thanks. :P

Assalamualaikum.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

I ♥ MY PATIENTS!

2010-08-20T03:23:00.000-07:00

My title says it all. I ♥ my patients, i care for them very much. Today at work was kinda emotional for me. Especially after i found out my favourite patient there whom i always talk to, change her diapers, do vital signs on her, basically i already treat her like my own grandmother, is like going home already. I was shocked to see her in home clothes. I came towards her & was like, "Nenek, kenapa nenek pakai baju rumah ni?" Then her maid told me she can go home today. My face terus tukar jadi sad !. As much as im suppose to be happy because she can be discharge, i am just so sad that i am not going to see her next week. Omg. :( She's the cutest nenek I have ever met. I was even more sad when she told me she sayang me & she will miss me ! I almost cried !. I bid her goodbye by kissing her hand & saying, "Assalamualaikum". Her last word to me was "Waalaikumsalam". :) Nenek, Liza akan rindu nenek! InsyaAllah, Liza nak sangat terserempak dengan nenek! I was so happy that she lived at Pasir Ris. :) She reminded me so much of my late grandmother. That is why i care for her so much. :)

Not only her, i am also close to this one patient, i call him pakcik when i am supposed to call him atok! :) Hehe. This atok, he always have that sad face. I felt sad looking at him & felt sad when i found out everytime he refused to eat. Everytime a physiotherapy came to me & ask me to translate to Malay for him, he always listens & that is what makes me happy. Just now, i told him to smile & OMG i saw his smile for the first time ever! & when i wanted to leave, i pad his shoulder & told him i am going home. I know somehow he's going to be discharge soon also. So in case i am not going to see him next week, i bid him goodbye & told him to take good care of himself. He nodded his head with a smile on his face! I was so happy. :) & i also told him that i & other nurses sayang him. There was this one point of time he teared. I never felt having a grandfather before. Therefore, he is like one to me. :)

I was also sad when i found out one auntie whom i called Ama which means Nenek in chinese right? I went to her bed & she wasn't there! She was discharged yesterday night & i was so sad. :( :( No more hi five-ing with her anymore. No more holding her hands anymore. No more saying Ke Yi Ma to her anymore. :( I was so sad because the last time i saw her was.... i fed her with NGT feeding. :( She was the best & the cutest Ama ever la please. :(

One thing i dislike is when i found out the patients whom i am already close to is going home. I just felt so sad. & the meeting just now, i found out one lady whom i took Vital Signs for passed away. It was really sad situation. I mean seriously if you were in my shoes, you took care of the patient, you talked to her before, took her Vital Signs, changed her diapers, then suddenly...... It's like you lost one of your own. Plus, i am a very emotional girl & i can't deal with this.

Apart from that, for the very first time, i saw this gangrene thingy. My whole face changed when i smell & when i saw that thing. I pity that nenek alot. :( Her family loves her. You know, all this experience actually taught me to take good care of yourself before it's too late. Health is number one priority. You have to take good care of yourself. & never be selfish. Never be arrogant. Because if you are, when you are old, no one will want to take care of you. So be loving, to everyone around you, care for people around you. & God will repay your good deeds. InsyaAllah. :)

I told Sam that on Friday, next week. I will surely cry when i bid goodbye to all the patients there. Just today i felt like crying already, what if next week? & today, was the last day with Ms Fadilah. She taught me a lot of stuff in the Clinicals. Im grateful to have a teacher like her. Thanks for everything that you've taught me & my friends. :)

& not to forget, i have done everything that i have learnt in school. Vital signs, NGT feeding, Oral feeding, Oral hygiene, using bed slide, transfer patient here & there, assisted in showering, bed making, hand hygiene, changing of diapers, observed things that i have also never taught in school before. But one thing i have yet to see, death infront of my very eyes. & i don't wish to see it please.

& im meeting ♥ tomorrow. I miss him so much that i can't stop listening & watching his videos. Hahaha. :) Yay, time to open up some books & mug. Well, i hope it's never too late.

Assalamualaikum.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

HAPPY 1ST, LOVE.♥

2010-08-18T00:00:00.000-07:00

Dear Muhammad Fareez Hedir Shah Bin Fazally Sham,

first & foremost, Happy 1st, my dearest soulmate.

Never have i thought a guy who i thought "kerek" at the first place, would turned out to be so special to me. I don't have to type down here how we met & how we became who we are right now. As long as we both know how our story goes, that is good enough for me. :)

The thing is now, i want you to know that i am very grateful. I am very grateful to have known you. I don't care what people want to say about you, or me. I don't care about your past anymore because like what you said, past is past, leave it all behind. Think ahead for the future :) I couldn't be more happier when you said that.

One thing for sure, you never fail to make me smile & laugh every single time, Hedir. You have a sense of humor which i admire. I melt every single time you sing to me. & remember okay, i am your #1 fan. Heheh. :P :P & also, never before in my life have i watched fireworks with someone two times in a year. :)) Something which i will never forget. I don't have anything much to say. Bottom line is, you're always there for me when i needed you. When i don't need you also, you're there. Hahaha :) :)

The song Seven Days & Kan Sentiasa Bersamamu mean a million lot to me. & yes, i am very sure you know why. Hehe :) The first time i heard you sang Seven Days live, my heart just sank. :) The part when you pointed & smile at me on stage, you made me feel like i am someone special to you. & the song Kan Sentiasa Bersamamu, you composed it just for me. Im just so touched & i was so speechless at that point of time.

& now, you know what's my biggest fear is right. Alhamdulilah, nothing bad happened this whole month. Instead, i've been laughing & smiling for these entire month, because of you. You're like a gift sent from the above. Every moment with you, i'll treasure & i'll cherish. Thanks for everything that you've done for me.

Liza bersyukur kerana dapat mengenali diri Hedir. & i am very thankful to God that just when i stepped into your life, you wanted to change & leave all the past behind. Seriously, i couldn't be more grateful. :)

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, LOVE♥

Blessed to have known you. :)

Kan Sentiasa Bersamamu.♥

Saat pertama kita berjumpa.

Masih segar di fikiran.

Tidak pernah ku menduga.

Kau akan ku kenali.

Setiap detik bersamamu.

Tidak pernah ku lupakan.

Setiap masa bersamamu.

Takkan ku ketepikan.

Terima kasih buat segalanya.

Kau umpama bidadari.

Terima kasih segalanya.

Kau bagaikan anugerah dari ilahi.

Bagi diriku ini.

Berjanji kan sentiasa bersamamu.

Kan bersamamu

Buat segala galanya

Terima kasih

ku ucapkan kepada dirimu

Menerima diriku ini

Ku hanya manusia biasa

Tetapi kerana dirimu

Ku terasa bagai seorang istimewa

Ku berjanji

akan sentiasa bersama mu...

bersama mu~~~

& i made the font blue cos its yr favourite colour. :))

Assalamualaikum.

Kan Sentiasa Bersamamu. ♥

2010-08-15T05:11:00.000-07:00

Im touched. Im speechless. I melted.

You have no idea how i reacted when i viewed this video.

I almost cried.

Im just so.......... touched.

Thank you for wasting your time composing this song for me.

MFHSBFS,

You know you mean everything to me.

♥

Opps, i post the video without telling him. Hehehe.

Assalamualaikum.

HOSPITAL.PATIENTS.HIM.

2010-08-15T02:27:00.000-07:00

ONE WEEK OF ATTACHMENTS DOWN!. Two more weeks to go. :) People say once you stepped in the clinicals, you'll tend to get more serious in your work. Well yes i couldn't agree more. My ward is filled with elderly people. I don't know if it's wrong to say this but, yes.. I do care for them very very much. I love to see that smile on their faces every time i smile at them. It makes me happy. I love talking Chinese to them, because at the same time, i learn Chinese too. :P Heheee. But to be honest, yes it is very tiring especially when it is fasting month now but yes, endure liza. :)

& after five consecutive days of not meeting Hedir, i met him finally yesterday. Actual plan was to study because OMG, i must start studying already. But then i was a little unhappy because all the library we went into, the tables all filled with people already. :( I don't want to study on the floor, a BIG NO. Cannot concentrate. Pft. :( So we went to Marina Square & played pool instead. Oh we saw Sleeq. Hahaha :) My idol. But then i didn't get that excited. Why? Because i already have my idol beside me & i am his number one fan!. *keningnaeknaek* Kan Hedir kan? Hahaha. Anyways! Yeah, we buka together later & boy didnt we know that was fireworks !. It ended around 10pm+ i think? Two times this year already i watched fireworks with him. :) Heheh. Okay thats all.

I am currently alone at home. Going to sister's house later. Sigh, malas pon ada but no choice. & im back at the hospital tomorrow. Thank God its afternoon shift. I am soooo shagged nowadays. & omg liza, start studying please please please.

Assalamualaikum.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

IM GRATEFUL ღ

2010-08-10T05:44:00.000-07:00

ALLAH ♥

FAMILY ♥

FRIENDS ♥

HEDIR ♥

What more could i ask for? :)

Im grateful to have them.

I have sucha supportive mum & dad who never fail to support me in whatever i chose to do. My two amazing sisters whom i look up to. My inspirations~ My awesome brother who i seem to get a little closer now which is a good thing, & this happen after he added me in facebook!. Hahaha :) My adorable nephews.

My awesomely girlfriends who understand me & accept me for who i am. None other than Eyma & Namira. If not for Facebook, we wouldn't meet each other. My awesome awesome Dysfunctional Family who never fail to crack me up. Of course, my SHS Academic Club members also. :) Not to forget, my craziest classmates. Hahaha :) I couldn't be more thankful that i got in Group Three.

Last but not least, Hedir. If its not for Facebook(AGAIN!), i wouldn't have known him. Im thankful i found the ONE. Who cares if i just know him? Who cares about his imperfections because his imperfections are awesomely PERFECT to me. What matters to me now is that he never fail to put a smile on my face. Never fail to crack me up. Never fail to be there for me when i needed someone. He just never fail to make me happy & thats what makes me grateful to have known him.

So tell me what more could i ask for? I will treasure & cherish every single one of them because they matters alot to me. They're the reason why im still living on this very Earth. They're the reason why i am always smiling. I've lost that sense of upset. & that's the reason why i don't post love quotes anymore. :P Because i don't find the reason why i have to.

Ya Allah, aku bersyukur dengan apa yang Engkau telah berikan kepadaku.

& like he said, what past is past. What matters now is the future. So please, don't bring up my past anymore. I don't want to know. I don't care about it anymore. What i care most are the people i mentioned above. & of course a few friends whom i cared, alot. You know who you are. The ONES i sent the ramadhan message to. YES AMAZING ISNT? I CARE FOR YOU. Hehehe :P Because somehow you guys were there when i needed someone. & i KNOW you guys care for me too, don't deny :P Hehehe.

SELAMAT MENJALANKAN IBADAH PUASA.

Assalamualaikum.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

ATTACHMENTS & HOLY MONTH IS HERE. ♥

2010-08-09T02:04:00.000-07:00

So tomorrow's the day. My first ever attachment. Filled with mixed emotions now. Scared, excited, upset, happy, confused & yadayadayada. I just don't know which one is right. But im pretty sure right now that im feeling rather upset because i know i couldn't spend my time with my loved ones especially when i want to break fast together with my family, my girls & him. But by looking at my shift, it is impossible. I have more afternoon shifts than morning shifts. I hate it. I prefer morning shifts. :( Sigh.

& of course, i'll be missing Eyma, Namira & Hedir. It has always been this three people who never failed to bright up my day. For this, i thank you. :) InsyaAllah, kalau waktu mengizinkan, kita berbuka puasa sama sama, ya? Hehehe :)

So Holy Month is here. Bertaubat lah anda sebelum anda ditaubatkan. :) Eh, ni betul eh, tak bedek. Betul kan, Eyma? :) & also, i would like to take this opportunity to of course seek forgiveness to whoever whom i have hurt before, say bad things to, hold grudges towards & rude to & yadayadayada. *dah mcm hari raye la pulak =.=* But really, this is the only chance whereby you can wash all your sins away~ :) Biarkan orang membenci kita, jangan kita membenci orang. Tidak bagus. Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. Bagus. :)

Today, i went out with Hedir♥ That guy seriously made my day, today. No wait, not today but every single day without failed. Today, he mentioned many things which seriously cracked me up. I remembered the first one was that we were eating at Vivocity, Burger King. He dislikes onions & so, he removes those stuffs from his burger. But then, he order Onion Rings & so i asked him, "I thought you tak suke onion?" & his replied was ........... "Ni tak nampak onion." =.= Big LOL. It was seriously very hilarious to me. & there's another one about him wanting himself to look like PAUL the WEREWOLF from ECLIPSE & so he told me he'll go gym three times a week for the next three consecutive week. & after that, he'll join the Werewolves Pack. =.= Hahaha. :) But hilarious, very cute of him. He'll do that scared look when he sees my-malas-nak-layan-look =P & yes we catched Eclipse after that :) Im so glad i got to spend time with him today. Tomorrow, i plan to get ready every important stuffs, iron my uniform(omg! Uniform larh seyh~ -.-) & yadayadayada. :) I am going to miss you, Hedir): Btw, 9 more days. *keningnaeknaek* :P

OH! & of course, HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY, SINGAPOREEEEE !!~ Eyh, i am proud to be a Singaporean okay. You should too. Singapore is a very nice country. Very beautiful. Even though sometimes i just wish we have Winter here in Singapore but oh~ dream on!~ :)

Im shagged. Im beat. Im fatigued.

So Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. ♥

NYP YOG FLASHMOB! ♥

2010-08-07T18:15:00.000-07:00

Not much to update. Yesterday was AWESOME! YOG Celebration !!. Woooooooooo~ As usual, i have duties to do lor. & because of that, i missed his performance. I was so soo sooooooo upset cos it was the only thing im looking forward to ! Urgh! :( I told him i was sorry but he didn't seem to mind. BUT! I mind... ALOT !. But then again, it's over. :( At least i saw him sang during the rehearsal the day before the big event. ANYWAYS! here is one of th video i recorded. during th flash mob. don't ask me what's wrong with th audio. It started off soft & turned louder later. & i only hear the sound of HORNS. & love it when th colourful thingy POP ! ahahaha. here it is :) *PS i couldnt remember if i was the one who shouted "ahhhh gereeekkkk kepeeee" but sshh kay. just ssshhh. HAHAHAHAH. :)

Many more videos. Many pictures. But i'll upload if i have the time. Today, im meeting him. Im spending my whole Sunday with him prolly because i am not going to meet him again. :( Unless he wants to fetch me from work. Chey~ Workkk~~ I mean attachments. But he stay sooooo far. :( So i don't want to trouble him. So anyways, im in a hurry. So yeah.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. :)

♥

2010-08-02T10:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO! Yes yes FINALLY! Im updating. & NO, i am not free now. I have a test later but here i am updating. Lazy to study la, hehe. ^^v Anyways, lots of stuff to update! I might be missing out some stuffs cos i couldn't recapped what happened for the past few days. Anyways, let's start with ..... NATIONAL DAY CUMS NURSES DAY!. ;D

It was awesome !!. All the SHS Club members wore white. :) It was cool. There were food, cakes, ice creams, candy floss & etc. I contributed some of the ice creams. There few performances etc. Basically, it was awesome. Later we had a sing-a-long for our dearest Mr. Aaron. We sang Over The Rainbow & To Sir, With Love for him & gave him a photo frame collage. It was so nice. What else? Oh! Photo taking & "Photo shoots". Hahaha. Photo taking are for the board whilst photo shooting? For fun :) I think that was it for Nurses Day. We celebrated in advance actually. The exact day was yesterday. Yes, yesterday was Nurses Day. I got a few wishes. Awwww, touched much(: Kekekeke.

So the event was on Wednesday. Thursday? Hmm.. I couldn't remember what happened on Thursday. I think i slacked with a few people in the Club Room? I think i was with Eyma & Muthe? Eyma & I were recording some videos til he came & interfere. We still have the video though. Hilarious :) Hmm, what else eh? I think i go on with Friday?

Friday, it was as per normal. Until that evening, someone invited me to his school's event. I couldn't say no, he was already holding on to my ticket. So yeah, with Eyma's companion, i met him. Then Eyma went home. Went to the event, everyone were wearing red & black. It was so awesome. But i stood one side because oh my gosh la, people were like staring at me. I bet in their head they were like, "Who is this girl sia? Sesat or what?" or something like that right? Hahaha. I watched him performed live, for the first time ever. :) He was goooooooooooood. He even pointed & waved at me on stage. That boy ah!. Made me so paiseyh. Since i stood behind, people actually turned their heads & looked at me. ><><>

Went to Swensens. Oh yes, we argued alot. I meant, ALOT. Only we know larh right we argued about what. Ridiculous. Haha :) Thanks for the Swensens treat hor. :) What else? We shared quite a number of stories about ourselves. From there i realised he wasn't the guy i thought he was. You might be wondering, is it a good thing or a bad thing? I shall not elaborate. Hehe. :) What else? We went to Marina Barrage there & admired the beautiful scenery. Omg please, you've got to love Singapore! Singapore is a beautiful country, please! :D That was... Friday.

Saturday? Award Ceremony! :) Parents were there. You know, this feeling you felt when your parents were there to watch you receive your award by Dr. Yaacob Ibrahim. For the first time ever in your life, how cool is that, you tell meeeee? & i was so happy i saw few of my friends that i have never seen for so long already. Funny conversation between me & a friend of mine. She was introducing herself to me & i introduced myself to her. Then we realised, we were in the same Mendaki class like.. 2 years ago? She looked so different & she said i looked so different. That was why we didn't recognise each other. Ridiculous right ! Haha. But it was so hilarious please. Then after that, ate with them & chilled with Idris. Later, met him. Went to watch fireworks at Marina Bay. Beautiful ! It was right above us la please :) I have to thank him many many. He fulfilled my 'dreams' for i've been wanting to watch fireworks for so long already. :) Later he brought me to a place that i've never been before. Some kind of rooftop. I was amazed. Beautiful scenery. Jakun lor. Heh. :) He was glad when i said he was the first one to bring me there. :D Oh & did i mentioned?..

While walking at the looooong bridge there(it was never ending), some guy shouted "Eh! Taufik BaSItah!" when he saw him. & i couldn't help but to laugh. The guy was like. so loud & so semangat shouted Taufik BASITAH! Hahaha. When it's supposed to be Batisah. =.= Funny la. & yeah, he was "kembang" lah tu konon eh orang pikir die Taufik Batisah! =P So hilarious la please. He told me about wanting to have his own performance somewhere around Esplanade. He knows i'll always support whatever he is doing. :)

Sunday. YOG rehearsal. Came in black tee. We were told what we were supposed to do & stuff. & after that, stayed to watch him rehearse. Again & again, must he point to me when he is singing? Paiseyyyh gilaa oi! His friends turned to look!. But i melt please. His voice... fuh~ :) I just hope he don't do that during the real day itself. Boleh tak? :D Heh. I shopped with Namira & Eyma at AMK Hub after that. Then, slacked at McDonalds with her. Then met him. :) Then home. Then yadaayadaayadaaa.~

8 more days of school. Sigh, i want to cry la please. :( :( I am not ready for attachments. Especially when i know i am definitely going to miss my girls & im sure you know who. =P

& i thought that hater at my formspring gone already. But i guess he/she came back huh? You know whatever you said actually made me even stronger especially when i have people around me to support me. So yeah! =P *shakes butt*

Because ever since you came into my life, my life is filled with happiness~

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

DI ANTARA CINTA DAN EGO ♥

2010-07-24T01:51:00.000-07:00

Should i cut my hair? Okay, i shall not. Or should i? D: Man, i am in dilemma ! Oh wells, what a boring Saturday. Eymaaaa !! Kata nak tengok fireworks leii?): I should start studying today, but my brain doesn't let me to. Ridiculous, i know. Why should i even study if i already got debarred? They haven't tell me the results yet lei !. My mentor will help me to appeal. Yes, no more second chances. I know ! Please, just please let me take the examinations again! D: Yes, unless it is OUR fault, then i don't mind. But we were there all along during the 3 hours of GSM! We were there watching movie. We tapped our cards !. Should be something wrong with the Attendance System. D: Oh wells..

Anyways ! Watched Sorcerer Apprentice or however you spelled it. Thanks Azrin !. The movie was awesome! Hahaha. & oh, i won't forget what Eyma said to me, "Cathay banyak lelaki cute, Golden Village tak banyak." LOL Eyma !. & thanks Azrin, he told us one real story that happened at SGH, about penanggal & one pregnant woman. You have no idea how scared i was after that!. Omg la ! He shouldn't have told me the story. Cos if any patients act so weird to me, i won't know what's going on. :/ TSK!. Talking about hospital ...

I was assigned to Ward 29 !. Why not 27? D: But yes, 29 !. So if you happen to know any patients at that ward & is staying for a long period of time, tell me. I'll take good care of him or her. Chey! :D But seriously, i am not ready. To be honest, i am scared. Very scared. *gulp* Projects coming right up! Two more, week 16. Sigh sigh sigh. Boooooo projects! :(

Okay, i want to get emotional now. *LOL. When she texted me saying she saw him, my heart just doesn't feel the same way anymore. I don't know why but i guess my feelings have fade away. You see, how do you feel if someone you like calls you by the name of the person he likes? Be it unintentionally or purposely. You'll feel hurt, very very hurt. That is why i decided to move on for i know, there's no use holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to. For nine consecutive months, i have been keeping this feeling inside of me. Nine consecutive months, & boy am i glad the feelings have fade away. I hope you're happy now, mister. I won't bother about you anymore. But if she leaves you, i just do hope you know, that is exactly how i felt if she were to leave you. Bear that in mind.

I know girls tend to think a lot. Well, we just can't help it. What to do ~

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

LAPAR LA OI!

2010-07-23T15:00:00.000-07:00

Alone in the club room right now. Menunggu kedua mambang di atas seperti menunggu langit jatuh. HAHAHA! =.= Lapaaaaarrrr ! Cepat la korang. )):

Kay, i want to laugh now ! HAHAHAHAHHA. Im currently chatting with people right now. & i lied to someone that im going to his block to strangle him because he made me mad. He was like "Biar betul?" "You at where now?" HAHAHAH ! I want to laugh please ! Kelakar pe. Nampak sah percaya. Abeh tak nak ngaku. Pft! Hahaha. ^^v

Anyways, did i mentioned that im hungry? Oh yes i did. & im boreddd. )): Anyways, wow, alot of July babies huh? I loiiike ~ Happy belated birthday Hanadi Don. I dont know why he never reply my birthday wish for him ): Boooo. Happy birthday Ridhuan! Happy birthday Kak Lynn ! Yay.

Did i mentioned i was debarred from ALL the examinations in NYP? I know right ! )): Sucks man. But oh wells. I pray that miracle will happen. Amin. :))

Okay bye. Liza lapar ):

Muke tak perlu kan i know :D Boreddd lor ):

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

I ♥ MY GIRLS !

2010-07-20T04:43:00.000-07:00

I don't know what will happen to me next month. Attachments & preparation for examinations. Sigh, i can really imagine how stress it'll be. But no doubt, i am pretty excited to attachments. I kinda afraid of the hospital though, Changi General Hospital. :( But look at the brighter side! Its just a few stops away from my house ! :)

Anyhoo, I've been enjoying school life. No, seriously. I mean, apart from all the studies, i seriously love being in school. I love my friends :) Im sure you guys know who you are. It's 21st tomorrow. You know i know we know, Eyma & Namira. ♥ :D Things have been happening lately, & only to found out yesterday there were rumours about me & ____ . & i was like OH MY GOSH. Hahaha. Unbelievable it may seems but no, we're not together, not even that close. =.=

& i found out that recently my cousin got into a motorcycle accident. Dear God, just hope nothing will happen to him. & my condolences to Amsyar & family. I know exactly how it feels like to lose two of your loved ones in a year. For I've been through that before, my friend. Cheer up. & to Syam Tom !. PERGI DOCTOR SECEPAT MUNGKIN!. Nurse Liza says so :) Jangan sampai semakin rabak tauu. Cos the way you told me, it sounded so serious ): Have a medical check up or whatever soon.

All the best for CT test tomorrow, dear year 1 nurses! Hehehhh. :)

Oh & not to forget, Happy 17th Birthday, Joana Louise Jamaica Laure Joseph !. ^^v

Come on! Who cares if shes uglier than the previous one ?! looks doesn't matter at all ! What's important is the inside. Wake up & realised that her heart is even more prettier than the previous one ! Ayayai~

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

FAREWELL PARTY/PARAMEDICS! PARAMEDICS!

2010-07-17T03:59:00.000-07:00

Hellooooo. I thought i was tired because i slept in the bus just now but i guess i am fresh awake now! Anyways, today was funn! Yesterdayy was effing fun too! Lets start from yesterday first shall we? :)

So yesterday we had a farewell party for Mr. Aaron. Even though Eyma, Namira & myself just entered the SHS Academic Club, we can tell that Mr. Aaron is an awesome guy. We ordered Canadian Pizzas & KFC. Eyma, Namira, Afiq & myself went to collect the food. KFC arrived first. The person who delivered us the KFC, turned out to be an ex-nypian & he was so popular in school. Wanna know why? Check his youtube, type 'Mikah-NYP' or something. He's a malay guy. I've yet to watch his YouTube. Must watch! ;D So anyways, pizzas came later. Then we all ate & we took group photos. The new committee is much bigger now ;D But i am pretty sure we'll be missing our old committee ): Anyways, after that, Mr. Aaron treated us with ice cream! ;D Awww, told you he is an awesome guy!.

OH! How can i forget this. We skipped for awhile during the party to watch the Bandzout. Boy, Akim's band were goooood! At the end of the party, Eyma, Farhat & I went to the Amphitheater again to watch Amsyar's band & also the results. In the end, Amsyar's band won! Woooooo! Awesomeee mannn !!. What else? Oh & something happened after that. Shall not elaborate. :)

TODAYYYYY! Went to school early morning to attend the School of Engineering(SEG) Sports Day 2010!. So there were Subeer, Shamsul, Eyma, Namira, Azrin & myself. We girls wore red while the guys wore black. So we felt like as if we are the seniors & they are the juniors. Hahaha. ;D Anyways we made our way to..... near the Sports Hall there & were given three aid bag. So........ At first it was Eyma, Namira & myself & the three guys themselves at our respective venues. There were three Game Venues, the Sport Hall, Netball court(i think) & the .... Futsal place, idk where! LOL. So while watching the people playing Futsal, we were like .. Jangan la injurt please, main baik baik takmo jatuh please. Hahaha. Effing funny cause we're scared that they injure themselves badly & we don't know what to do. So yeah.. & i could tell Namira wanted to be with Azrin *cough* Cause actual plan was actually to buddy up with the Seniors aka Juniors. LOL. But we girls cannot separate with each other la. Well, except for Namira, she can cause... I decided to ask Namira to switch with Shamsul or Subeer. But Subeer went to hospital due to something so Shamsul joined Eyma & I! & Namira with her Mr. BF! ;DD

So mostly we spent watching the Futsal, why? Because there, the guys play effing rough & the ground was wet so a lot of them were like.. tripping & falling. & everytime i saw them fall, i got scared. =S So anyways, one guy got injured. It turned out to be Eyma's friend. At that point of time, Eyma, Sham & I were at the Sports Hall. On the way back to Futsal area, we saw Azrin full of white dots everywhere. LOL. & only to found out that cream thingy(its hot!) burst! & i was like OMGGOD!. So that guy sprained his toe. Eyma was kind enough to help dap ice onto his toe. Baik Eyma.. Hahaha. Later, there were more injuries. Here & there. I couldn't count the times we ran. =.= Then we had lunch, more injuries. Then we went to Club Room. Slacked.

Then Eyma & I decided to go down again. Turun je dah ade orang injured. -.- & it's Eyma's friend but a different one. LOL! Eyma ada banyak kawan la. Hahaha. So i asked her to call Azrin cos he got a sprained, & we don't know what to do. If bleed or cut then we know la. So Sham came & we put that creamy thingy & asked him to rest first. We decided to stay at the Futsal since it was a last game. So yeah we did. Then a group of boys were fooling around. They were like "Paramedics! Paramedics! Injured! Injured!" It was funny la but i got irritated cause we know they were fooling around. -.- Eyma dah macam, "Betul ke?" & Sham was like, "Kalau betul betul abeh kite tak tolong.." Thats whyy! They joked about it, & we ignored them. What if they were serious? Ishkkkkk!. Then after the game, Eyma bandaged her friend's leg. That was when questions started coming in. Like.. "Are you volunteers?" & we were like "Noooo -.- We're nurses." & they were like ohhhh~. Volunteers?! Takda masa oi! Hahahaha. So later we went to Netball corners & they were thanking Eyma especially. Wakakakkaa, very funny i tell you.

So after the game, we walked towards the Prize Presentation corner. & againn they kept calling us "Paramedics! Paramedics!" Ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya aku orang yang penyabar.. Hahah! & one of the group leader was like, "Why they like the paramedics so much ah?" HAHAHA! Kelaka habessss !. What else? Oh we gave back their aid bag already then wanted to go up to Club Room when they called us again about this person who got injured. Guess what?

IT WAS JUST A MINOR INJURED OH MYY GODDD LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! We know they purposely called us -.- . Pft, Eyma boleh layankan. Kalau aku, aku dah jalan aje. Hahahaha. But anyways, we helped dengan hati yg ikhlas *cough* Eh betul, ikhlas okay. Eyma helped la, I & Sham just passed her the stuff. Then the guy were like "Sorry to trouble you" Then Eyma was like "Oh no it's okay" & everyone went "Wwwwwwwoooooooooooooooooo!~" Satu stadium gituh kecohhh oi! Ya Allah.. Tak tawu aper nak cakap. Then the guy was like.. Can i know your name blah3. Ape Eyma & I buat? Kita jalan buat bodoooohhhh! HAHAHA. Seriously la, they were funny but irritating la. -.-

Overall, it was a greatttttt experience! :) :) Haven't learn wound dressing, but i did it already, basics i mean. :) :) So happy you know! ;D Alhamdulilah, i gained something :)

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

GULA MATA.

2010-07-14T05:51:00.000-07:00

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Im currently in the process of practicing the song My heart by Paramore with my guitar. ;D & i kept playing the guitar when im supposed to study D: & just now was so fun lah please.. Namira missed all the fun during lunch time :( WE MUST BULLY EYMA IN SCHOOL OKAY, ALEX?! :D kening naek naek* & something happened in the resource room just now.

Namira ;
What's another name for Hip Bone?
Eyma & I ;
*dengan muka confident, tidak bersalah & muka selamber gile, kite jawab......* HIP BONE!

This totally made my day man seriously. & something happened also in the bus with Eyma. Effing hilarious la pleaseee! ;DD

Oh & I don't like wearing mask! ):

Okay, take care & may peace be upon you.

THANK YOU ALLAH.

2010-07-13T05:57:00.000-07:00

I've watched too many sad videos already. Sad videos about love, death, sacrifices & etc. & i cried watching every video because every videos i've watched have taught me a lesson.

A lesson that no one is perfect in this world. A lesson that taught me that, if you think you're the one having problems & feel like wanting to end your life, think bout those with disabilities & still living their lives happily. Think about the sacrifices & pain your mother went through. Think about the hardships trying to raise you up. Think about those without hands & legs, they are still happily living in this world. Then why does those emotional people love to cut their wrist, punch their fist on the mirror etc?. Think about those are suffering. Those who have no choice but to beg for money. But why do some human beings that are rich, have such a big house, with a huge car, have to be arrogant & selfish sometimes?

Well, i am not trying to say that I am trying to be perfect. NO. But take some time to go to Youtube, find some inspirational videos to watch, then all those questions will surely popped out too.

The thing is now, i just want to thank Allah for everything He have given to me. I am grateful for every littlest thing He gave to me. My family, my friends & etc. & like what Ms Pauline told my class, learnt to cherish the ones you love. Treasure them before it's too late. Because you will never know if tomorrow will come.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

2010-07-11T09:01:00.000-07:00

Thanks to that person, i found out people bitched about me. & yes, i may be very very hurt, but then again, let people say whatever they want to say. It's their mouth, i can say nothing. All i know is Allah knows me better than anyone else. So i don't really mind what people want to say about me. & i may not know who that person is, but Allah knows who you are, who bitched about me. I am not trying to to be such a religious person here, but i do believed in God. Allah sayang dengan hambanya yang sabar. & therefore, i shall not say much. In fact..

Im glad he got such a good girlfriend. Despite people bitching about me at her formspring, she did not say anything bad. I respect & i salute her. To the girl if you're reading this. Acap is a very nice guy, you don't have to doubt his love for you. Honestly, i say, i did not know he already have a girlfriend. But i am glad, he moved on. & i am sure you're a very nice lady, Sofia. May both of you last long okay? :) :)

I don't want to hate the person who wrote bad about me on her formspring. What's the use afterall? There's no time to hate. & in fact, life is too short. So i just want to make a full use of it.

BORING SUNDAY.

2010-07-11T00:49:00.000-07:00

The girl above is Namira Azman, she's Eyma's & my elder sister. She's EIGHTEEN goin on NINETEEN. She sweet, nice, pretty & everything nice. & SHE'S TAKEN. Yes, she's TAKEN. & the guy she's with, loves her very very very very much. & she loves him very very very very so please don't try to separate them apart. Don't be evil. Let them be. Go find your Mr. Right & don't disturb hers. *shakes butt* *winkwink*

The girl above is Nur Kalimallah. She is Namira's younger sister & my elder sister. Easy said she's in the middle. She's EIGHTEEN. She is sweet, nice, pretty & everything nice. She's AVAILABLE. So if you want to get to know her, ask me kay. But one thing about her is that, she don't like her friends introducing her to guys. That is what she told me la! *keningnaeknaek* She is still waiting for her Mr. Right. :) She will find one.

I want to share with you guys something. Here it is ;

BEFORE MARRIAGE.

He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
She: Do you want me to leave?
He: NO! Don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Of course! Over and over!
She: Have you ever cheated on me?
He: NO! Why are you even asking?
She Will you kiss me?
He: Every chance i get!
She: Will you hit me?
He: Are you crazy! I'm not that kind of person!
She: Can i trust you?
He: Yes.
She: Darling!

Some of you might go "Aaaawwwww". But AFTER MARRIAGE... Read it again, this time from bottom to top.

Sad isn't it. I still have so many things to share. But maybe next time. I've got project to do. & i am kinda bored. Alright. Til here.

Don't ever let life knocks you down. If you feel like giving up, stop & think. If you're seventeen years old. Reminisce again all your past, your obstacles and hindrance you went through few years back.. & see where you are now. Still living, aren't you? & then again, think back. Your mum didn't give up when she was giving birth to you. Why should you? & giving birth to you is even more painful than what you're going through now. So.. think.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

GOOD SATURDAY.

2010-07-10T11:11:00.000-07:00

This was taken yesterday. Tengok itu Eyma, tengah baca apa entah, concentrasi habes. We recorded a few video. I hope to upload them soon. ;D ;D Anyways, to Namira, cheer up sayang! :)

Anyway, i just went home from Polyclinic. Beloved daddy sent me there. I need to take Hepatitis B jap. Huahuahua. Sakit oi, masih terasa sekarang ini, this moment, right now. Tsk. But i only need to take one dose cos i've taken three of those when i was young. All this is for the sake of attachment. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. But im exciteddddd :) Alaah, amek vital signs & apa tu? Oh, naso-gastric tube feeding aja apa. Year one slack. Betul tak betul? ;D Im hoping to see no death. :S Please? Hmmmm. Apa lagi? Oh, currently at my sister's house. My upper arm is so painful. Tsk la. Its like as if i can still feel the needle inside. Ayayai~

Chatted with Eyma just now. I was sad when she said, "Tak guna kau tunggu dorang semua". What she meant was one. Well, i felt sad cos i thought somethings are worth waiting for. But i still agree to what she said. & we have to give ourselves a chance to look upon doors that are open for us rather than waiting for doors that have been closed. :(

Okay, let's not talk about that now. World Cup now. As much as i THINK Spain is going to win, I support Holland. :) :)

Oh yes terlupa! I forgot! Yesterday watched Eclipse :) It was awesome. Im in love with Jacob & Jacob's friend. Siapa tuh? Embry Call? AAHH! Werewolves are hot man! Huahua :D

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.
Jaga Diri dan Assalamualaikum.

I'VE TRIED.

2010-07-08T07:19:00.000-07:00

I know that I was the one who said Goodbye. But one thing that I can't deny, you're still right here in my heart & in my mind. I told you what my heart asked me to, I've said those three words to you. Yes, Im missing you. I didn't know til i took a time to have a time of myself alone, thinking back of those memories I've had. Then i realised, it was you i am missing. Something about you that makes it hard for me not to think about whenever i do something or wherever I go. Those moments I'll cherished. I came to my senses now, people change & they moved on. Guys have this tendency to move on really quickly, while girls stuck in denial and misery.

To you, I've tried. I still care & i am concern about you. I regret. How i wish to turn back the time, but this is reality, this is life. I know you would probably care less, but here I am, wanting to tell you, if you ever need a friend, I'll be there. For someone once told me, if you care, like or love someone truly, you let him or her go. I agree only to a certain extent. & letting go does not mean you have to disappear. I can tell my mind to stop thinking of you, I can tell myself to not mind losing you, but I can't tell my heart to forget about you. For somehow, you've the best thing that could have happened in my life. Then again, I'll leave it all to fate cause fate decides.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

HAPPY.

2010-07-06T07:08:00.000-07:00

Hi. I don't know what to update for today. All i know is i had fun with the SHS Club people as usual. Had a great laughed in the bus with Eyma, OMG i think whole bus can hear our laughter la please. LOL. & yeah, a million thanks to Farhat, HE FOUND MY THUMBDRIVE. OMG, I was soooo effing happy la please. Thanks Farhat !! ^^v World Cup ending soon, welcome to reality, Namira sayang. :)

Okay, i am dead for tomorrow. HELP! :S *gulp* Shoooooooosshh la. :'( But never to late to study! If not, tawakal aje la. Heh. What else? I thought i got a lot of things to update ?! Hmmm . Nevermind, next time !. :)

"I'd rather have a life full of mistakes than a heart full of regret."

"The greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all your mistakes and differences and still finds you absolutely amazing."

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

MY SWEET SEVENTEEN.♥

2010-07-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

YES, IT'S WRITTEN.
I LOVE MY DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY. ♥

Basically, on July 2nd 2010. This group of people surprised me & i totally had no idea that they planned all this. Thanks to the mastermind, Eyma! ;) It all started like this .....

Around 12am+, on July 2nd, Eyma texted me. Or is it around 10, 11pm+? IDK. BUT! She texted me saying she hated ___ ! She looks mad so i asked her what happened. She told me something about ____ cursed her upside down just because she was concerned about Namira & Azrin's problem(ni dua mambang, lain cerita. focus on eyma's problem first!). So i was like WHUATT?! ___ was so unreasonable lah please. Like seriously. & Eyma said she wanted to confront him. I was like, confront?! OMG! & she wants me to company her. & it was ON my birthday. I was like .. I don't want to cari pasal on my birthday. So i told her not to confront. Nanti jadi gaduh !. Then came Namira's message. Saying she was upset!. When she said that, i know it was about Azrin. So i told her to cheer up, & we'll talk about it tomorrow. ON my birthday. I was laying on my bed, thinking... Why is my birthday so sueh?! & tweeted that my birthday simply means nothing when my beloved friends are hurt & upset.

They told me they finished at FIVE IN THE AFTERNOON. I finished at ELEVEN IN THE MORNING. While waiting for them to finish, i was with my classmates who were having their lab test. So when the clock striked FIVE, Eyma texted saying they finish already & was at the McDonalds. So i met them & they told me about their problems. We sat at McDonalds til around SEVEN plus. Eyma told Namira & i to accompany her to AMK Hub to find some stuff she need to buy for her Masjid thing & also, they plan to buy FRAME for Mr Aaron as Mr Aaron is leaving us soon. I was PISSED that Namira refused to walk & talk with Azrin. I kept telling Namira to go walk with him & solve things out!. But they still refused to. I was SAD. ON my birthday y'know they fought. So at AMK Hub, we were finding for a FRAME shop.

But when we turning towards POPEYYE, A GROUP OF PEOPLE POPPED OUT OF NOWHERE & SINGING A BIRTHDAY SONG WITH A CAKE BEING LIGHTED UP WITH CANDLES. & yes, the GROUP OF PEOPLE were of course MY DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY(Hexi is included, welcome to our family!) I WAS SURPRISED, SPEECHLESS & ........ IDK JUST SO SURPRISED!. LOL. They seriously made my day, thanks guys! ♥

Ate at Popeyyes. After that they opened the cake's box & they sang the birthday song again. OMG LA! Paiseyhh man. People eating at that place also started singing. LOL!. I was touched ! Really. No words could described how happy i was actually. Then, they told me everything. This was when i started to get like.. UGH, WHAT?! I WAS FOOLED ALL ALONG!" ;D

They planned this at the SHS room earlier on while i was waiting for them to finish their lessons!. OMG!. Evil right?! HAHHAHA. Just kidding. You guys are so effing sweet la please !!. & all the text messages, the acting about Namira & Azrin's fought were fake ! & Eyma didn't fought with ___ . EVERYTHING WAS PLANNED !. & IT WENT WELL. & I WAS BEING FOOLED. =.=

HAHAHAHAHA. But i love them all (: Thanks guys, for everything !!. You guys rocks la OMG!. ♥

To my classmates, thanks for singing the birthday song as a whole class. I was touched. :) ♥

Mum&sister, thanks for buying my favourite perfume. You guys had no idea how upset i was when that perfume dropped & it broke. But you guys bought me a new one. I was touched. :') ♥

Munirah, thanks for the birthday gift. I love it !! :) ♥

Dad's getting for me something!. heheheee ;D ♥

Brother asked me if i want chocolates. But i told him i want Iphone 4G. Who knows he's really buying for me... for real?! Because he bought that IMAC Computer for my birthday but my second sister & i share it ;) ♥

Aunts !. Thanks for the kachingz~ I appreciate it. :)) ♥

Elder sister planned for me something on Friday but i was out & went home late. So my mum told me to have it on other days. ;D Today, they brought me to some place to search for the thing that i want longgg longggg time ago! Heh! :)♥

For those who wished me, be it at Facebook wall, messages, text messages, MSN, Formspring, Twitter & etc. Thank you. & these two people messaged me & wished me. I was touched cos i broke these two people's heart & they remembered my birthday. (: ♥ I appreciate it guys. Thank you.

I am finally seventeen. ;)

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

QUOTES/PHRASES/ECLIPSE♥

2010-07-01T00:20:00.000-07:00

"I'm gonna fight for you, until your heart stops beating." - Jacob Black♥

"Isabella Swan, I promise to love you every moment of forever." - Edward Cullen.

favourite character please♥ plus Taylor of course♥
but im team Edward due to the fact that Bella & Edward suits together.
Alice can be with Jacob. ;D
*buat cerita sendiri*

LOVE. ♥
It's when you shed tears yet you still care; It's when you're ignored yet you still long; It's when he begins to love another yet you still smile and say "I'm happy for you."

"To love someone is nothing. To be loved by someone is something. But to be loved by the one you love is everything."

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fall."

"Someday someone might come into your life and love you the way you've always wanted. If your someday was yesterday, learn. If your someday is tomorrow, hope. If your someday is today, cherish."

"Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But I'd rather be your moon, so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun isn't around."

"No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry."

"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have."

"The worst part about life is waiting, the best part about life is having someone worth waiting for."

"The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson."

"A friend is the inspiration in you when you have lost all hope and they bring out the world in you that you never knew you had."

"The worst thing a guy can do is make a girl fall for him with no intension of catching her."

"When im older, and my child asks me who my first love was, i don't want to take out an old photo album. I just want to be able to point across the room and say, "He's right over there."

"Behind every girl, there's a dumbass guy who did her wrong, and made her strong."

"When one door closes, another opens. But we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."

"The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else."

"A girl don't get hurt seeing the guy she love with another girl. The thing that hurt her most, is knowing that she used to be that girl."

"Goodbyes never hurt. But the only goodbyes that do hurt, are the ones when you know you'll never get to say hello again."

"Anyone can make you smile. plenty can make you cry. but it takes someone really special to make you smile with tears in your eyes."

i didn't know i actually gathered alot of quotes !. LOL. :)

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.♥

ECLIPSE.

2010-06-30T01:57:00.000-07:00

*previous post deleted*

I don't know why i took a picture with the Breaking Dawn book when it is supposed to be the Eclipse book. Hhaha. & i didn't read the book. *winks* Currently at elder sister's house. I got to play with Syahmi, he's bathing now. He's so cute, i love it when he laughs. SO CUTE! Shamil is sleeping. I shall wait for him to wake up & surprise him on my presence. Anyways~

There was no school today. Boy, am i glad !. Im so fatigued yesterday & was so down so if i were to have school today, my mind will totally not be in school, as i'll tend to daydream. :( Oh! I found this phrase or whatever from the Eclipse book.

"If i had found you, there isn't a doubt in my mind how I would have proceeded. I was that boy, who would have — as soon as I discovered that you were what I was looking for — gotten down on one knee and endeavored to secure your hand. I would have wanted you for eternity, even when the word didn't have quite the same ...connotations." Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 12, Pg. 227. ♥

SWEET!. Can i have a boyfriend like Edward? Or perhaps like Jacob? ♥

& can i have a kitten? Or perhaps Volkswagen Beetle HOTPINK in colour or or a IPHONE 4G? Or perhaps an Ipad. Or probably a bigger laptop but im still loving my pink netbook vaio though. Or maybe CR for my birthday? LOL. Okay. =.= Not going to happen, confirm plus double chop chop!. :( OR PERHAPS A MAKEOVER FOR MY ROOM, TRANSFORM EVERYTHING TO HOTPINK? kay. stoppit. never going to happen.

Im just kidding. i just want YOU.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. ♥

HAPPY BELATED 3RD BIRTHDAY, NOR AQMAR SHAMIL.

2010-06-27T12:14:00.000-07:00

Adeq, Happy Belated 3rd Birthday, sayang. You've grown up so fast. :) At the age of three, you already knew a lot of things. You know Arab language, you know abc, you know 123, you know how to talk fluently, you know how to sing few of Indonesian's songs, you know that, you know this. Im impressed & i've always believed that you'll be an intelligent boy one day. Make us proud, kay adeq? Auntie Liza loves you & miss you so much. I talked to him on the phone just now. & here was our conversation.

Me ; Hello, adeq? Happy belated birthday.

Adeq ; Tadi i pergi keluar i blow cake tau.

Me ; Eh, oh. Happy Birthday tau.

Adeq ; Okay, i know.

Haha. Obviously he don't know that he actually have to say Thank You. Oh & here is another conversation of him with sister.

Sister ; Adeq nak ape?. Auntie Aishah belikan.

Adeq ; Nak kereta Ferrari, kereta Mazda and kereta Ben 10.

Sister ; Nak besar punye ke nak kecik?

Adeq ; Besar !!.

Hhaha. Cute lah, adeqq !.

I miss this little one too. Hoping to visit them later but then i remembered i have lots of things left to study. Tsk. Exams after holiday period sucks can. Haish. But nehmind, few more to study! Come on~

I miss them all. I realised Shamil & Syahmi wearing something related to Man U. Awwww ;) Macam auntie dia jugak lah support Manchester United. Haha. ;D

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

4E3 BBQ PIT WAS AWESOME!.

2010-06-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

Okay so basically no pictures. Im waiting for the group picture please. ;) *okay wait, i just got it ! ^^v* Anyways, today was awesome. So shocked to see those chinese guys with long hair now, they looked so..... matured. Hahaha. ^^v I miss them all. ;D Okay so we have two BBQ Pit. 20 & 21. Muslims & Non Muslims seperated. Only the cooking part separated but we all mixed together okay! No racism here. ;) Snapped pictures here & there. During the sunset, i was mesmerized by God's creation that i grabbed Fareeha & Munirah to take picture with me. So awesome.

Anyways!. Yeah. I thought of going home early but ended up going home around 10 plus. Hhehehe. ^^v I cooked for the first time. Jangan main main. Api and asap all over me tawuq. Hahaha. There were so many food & drinks la please. Haha. ^^v Hmm.. What else eh? Ouh there was this conversation that cracked me up. I was eating when Antarcus & Eugene sat in between me. & our conversation goes like this .

Me ; So Antarcus, where are you schooling now?
Antarcus ; Yishun.
Me ; Ouh... ITE?
Antarcus ; No.. JC.
Me ; Opppsss. Heheheeee. Sorryy~
Eugene ; You, Shaliza?
Me ; Nanyang.
Eugene ; Nanyang ITE?
Eugene & Antarcus ; *laughs*
Me ; *=.=* Where got such place !.
Antarcus ; Where got Yishum ITE?
Me & Eugene ; Got la !.
Antarcus ; Really meh?
*laughs*

Most of the time we asked one another about our life & how's school and stuff. Ms Gwen visited us later that night too. :) :) She's my inspiration. The reason why im in love with mathematics so much. ;D Gosh, i miss her. I miss everybody. Sigh. I really miss my secondary school days. :'( But i don't miss O level days lah please. Hahaha. Well, til here..

Thanks 4E3 for the BBQ Pit. It was a success. Hope to meet you guys again soon. xoxo

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

AWESOME.

2010-06-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

i learnt a lot from this movie, Toys Story 3. Yes, it's just a cartoon. But this cartoon teaches us something which we can relate to in reality. This movie taught me how important it is to treasure & cherish our loved ones. I cried watching this movie. Very touching, indeed. :)

this movie, Karate Kid, also taught me a lot of things. One of which is to endure & persevere to achieve what you want to achieve & of course to never give up hope. The phrase "Life will knock you down. But you can choose whether or not to get back up" is so meaningful. Yes, this movie i cried too. Jaden Smith, he's a good actor. He can cry, for real. :) :)

I love this two movies. But at the same time, im excited for Eclipse, Step Up 3 & also, Harry Potter & the Deathly Hollows. :)

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, AYAH. ♥

2010-06-20T08:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, AYAH! ♥♥♥

Thanks for being the awesomest & the most supportive dad ever in the whole wide world. I've always look up to you as a good example. For you're 61, & regardless of you're age, you're still standing strong. & not to forget, the only breadwinner in the family. I've always admire your strength, Ayah. I understand how hard isit, to work from morning til late afternoon.. just to manage our family. You have to cash out for the house bills, kak elya's & my school money & also, for yourself. Not to forget, our phone bills too. Because of you, we are still living in this very house. Because of you, i am willing to love the course i am in even though it is not one of my choices at all. I do all this for your sake, because i want to help our family in the future. For my course is the only course that will have a stable job & insyaAllah, a bright future. I'll do whatever it takes to pay all your kind deeds back, Ayah. I don't know how or what will this family become without you. You're the most important person in our family. (':

& i admire you because i know you used to be a heavy smoker last time. But look at you now, because of all our advices, because we love you, you're willing to put it a stop. Im very proud & impress of you, Ayah. :) & Even though we can't celebrate Father's Day here in Singapore because you're at Kuala Lumpur now, i just want to let you know, whether its Father's Day or not, i love you always & i love you forever. It's so sweet of you to leave kak Elya & i a hundred bucks each for a week, even though it's Father's Day. It is us who have to give you something, not you giving us something. This shows how thoughtful you are. & even though i didn't manage to wish you before you're gone to KL, i managed to message you & your reply left a smile on my face.

No words could describe how much im grateful & lucky to have and to call you my dad. Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu. & although sometimes i may be rude to you, or perhaps not listening to you, just to let you know, deep inside, i don't mean to do those things to you. After i did that, i regret. & i promised myself i won't do it again. After arwah passed away, i want to spend more time with you & mum & the rest. Im so glad we're a happy family. I love you, ayah.. always & forever in my heart. ♥♥♥

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

What True Love Is ♥

2010-06-19T00:54:00.000-07:00

" When I'm older, and my child asks me who my true love was, i don't want to take out an old photo album. I want to be able to point across the room and say, "He's right over there." "

" The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else. "

" In every girl, there's a dumbass guy who did her wrong, and made her strong. "

Can i pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now. i wish i wish i could turn back the time. For there are many things i didn't do, which i wished i did. For there are many things i did, which i wished i never did.

" When one door closes, another opens.
But we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door
that we do not see the one which has opened for us. "

Agree?

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. ♥

(': ♥

2010-06-18T02:25:00.000-07:00

Nor Aqmar Shamil & Nor Aqmal Syahmi.

Having these two boys in the family is simply awesome. They never failed to put up a smile on my face everytime i visited them.Because of them, i almost forgot about those sorrows my family went through. But Shamil however, tend to ask, where is arwah. When he asked, we were speechless, we didnt know what to say. For a two year old, its too young for him to understand about all this stuff. But the point is now, im glad to have these two boys as my nephews. & i still don't know how this year's Hari Raya is going to be like. )': But then again, life still goes on as usual. & we'll never stop praying who those whom we love. Never will we stop praying for arwah nenek & Mika Ayman. (':

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. ♥

I MISS KOREAA! ♥

2010-06-18T02:00:00.000-07:00

I MISS KOREA LIKE OH MY GEEEEEEE !!~ SERIOUSLY!. MISS EVERYTHING! The late night practice. Wait, what was the late night practice for ? *thinking* OH! To perform for this one Korean class. I forgot what xD The weather, cooling weather that when you talk, there's smokeee !. It was one digit temperature by the way. What else? The scenery (Y) LOVE IT!. The food especially Kimchi.......... NOT! KIMCHI.. YUCKS! It's not nice !. I only love the seaweed. :) :) The catwalk, yes, i wore a wedding dress for the first time ever & it was so effing heavy please !!. & my partner for the runway catwalk was this tall handsome korean guy. *kening up up* He's so cute please. Ugh. Forgot to take down his number. HAHAHAHA. okay just kiddin. =.= What else? THE ROLLER COASTER! I actually can't believed it that i actually rode the roller coaster. It was effing scary please. It's the STEEPEST roller coaster in the world. xD What else? There's more. OHHH! When we stayed in the village, we girls gossiped & share stories at night, refused to go to sleep. ^^v AWESOME MOMENT.! Gosh, i miss all of that )': boooooohooooooo~

& this is written by ME!. It says here "Sarang Heyo" means I Love You. :) :) & yes not to forget i got "married" two times in Korea & my friends were like saying i wasn't faithful & stuff like that. Very fun moments, indeed. :D I miss Korea. It's a beautiful country. & to be honest, it's hard to find hot guys there lah. Only when i visited this beauty school thingy where we all did the make over & catwalk, thats when we saw many hot girls & guys. HAHA. ^^v

Alright. Til here then.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. ♥

♥

2010-06-16T23:05:00.000-07:00

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."

"Goodbyes never hurt. But the only goodbyes that do hurt, are the ones when you know you'll never get to say hello again"

"A girl don't get hurt seeing the guy she love with another girl. The thing that hurt her most, is knowing that she used to be that girl."

"Anyone can make you smile. Plenty can make you cry. But it takes someone really special to make you smile with tears in your eyes."

All this quotes, i just find them really meaningful. Seriously ..

I feel so down nowadays. I don't know why. Hmm.. Not to mention im sick. I hate it. & oh by the way, just went home from Farhan's pit. So much for Carrefour reunion, majority are Siglapians. Booooooo~ I don't even know them except for this girl who appear famously on facebook. You know, i know my Carrefour friends know. She's pretty in person. & she don't deserved to be treated that way. Was invited to Akim's pit too. Heard it was some NYPians pit but without Eyma, i won't go. Eyma is busy working. Awwwww ): So i spent time with my Carrefour friends after we ate at the pit. Perangai eh, pergi pit cari makan. ^^v Worth our two dollars please. Hhahaha.

We played Pool. Snapped pictures & then we decided to head home. This is definitely not Carrefour Reunion. We planned to have Chalet. But when ? When ?~ Oh & by the way Farhan, thanks for the invite. :) :)

OH OH! & i found the video of this nurse woman who killed this cute adorable little kitten with her heels. HEARTLESS WOMAN!.~ pft!. tsk.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You. ♥

♥♥♥

2010-06-15T17:46:00.000-07:00

I can't wait to get a kitten or a cat of my own. So adorable ♥
Cursed whoever who actually chopped two of the kitten's leg. !
Video is at my Facebook Profile.

Di Manakah Engkau, Wahai Thumbdriveku~

2010-06-14T23:39:00.000-07:00

"Mr Deejay made an announcement that its time for the slow dance. Eyma and I watched how sweet couples or even friends dance to the slow music. Nice and romantic. Farhat took Liza to dance with him. Amazingly sweet. Then, Eyma with Shamsul. Cute or what! As for me, I made my way to the storage area to put my phone when Azrin pulled my hands and I was all blur and shocked. Lols. And, so we waltz too with the others. (: first time slow dance and oh my, I was terrible. Hahahaha. But, its alright. Seeing Eyma and Shamsul danced beside us, made Azrin and I laughed. They were adorable! And, Liza and Farhat ewahhh, luper dunia. :P It was lovely, thank you."

I laughed the minute i read this, quoted from my dear girlfriend, Namira Azman. Thanks eh sayang!. HAHAHAHAHA. Takmo bikin cerita tau, dosa. Mana ada lupa dunia. =P =P Sayang kau!. ♥

Anyhoos!. Today marks the first day of school holiday but i woke up as usual & went to school for a make-up lesson for Nursing Lab. Booooooo i know~ But it was fun because later i met with my girlfriends. Never failed to put a smile on my face. Namira's going away to Malaysia this wednesday & Eyma is busy with her work. Sigh, & i am a loner.~ BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

Just now, Eyma suddenly asked me about my exs. Hhaha. Funny la~ & we shared some love stories of our own. Not enough, must share more !. More more more !. ;D ;D & about my thumbdrive, sigh. No where to be found. Please any kind souls out there who found my thumbdrive, you will know its mine cos it consist of hundreds of my pictures. That thumbdrive means a lot to me. So if you have it with you, just please.. Kindly return it back to me. Please.. )':

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

ITS BORING BORING SUNDAY!

2010-06-13T18:19:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Earthlings!~ It's Sunday & im so bored right now. Planned to go doctor for an eye check up but with who with who?! ): ): & i feel so insecure without my thumbdrive. Please God, don't let anyone steal th thumbdrive full of my pictures. ): Im so scared. Please don't. Going back to school tomorrow, hopefully to miracle-ly find the thumbdrive. Please. Amin.

Im so hungry! Craving for Magnum Gold please. Boooooo~ ): & i know im bored but when someone whom i don't even know asked me out, i'll say no cos i dont dare goin out with a stranger. Sorry ):

Farhan asked if i want to work at Carrefour again. I want badly ): But too busy with school la. Haish ):

To Eyma & Namira, let's do some window shopping girls! Window shopping?! Sigh. Im broke lah thats why window shopping. hmph~

TWO chalet/BBQ Pit this month. One is Farhan's & another one is 4E3's. Not sure if im going though ): booooo la booooooooo~

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You ♥

GRAD/PROM NIGHT PICTURES. ♥

2010-06-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

more pictures at facebook. lazy to upload them all. awesome day! ♥

PROM NIGHT. ♥

2010-06-12T13:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the most memorable day i had. & i've to thank Allah for yesterday. I didnt expect it to happen, but it did. & ive many people to thank.

A big thank you to SHS Committee Member for all of your support. Thanks a million for supporting Farhat & i. It was a blessed. Despite not having my supporters there, but then i realised, you guys are my supporters. Especially Eyma & Namira who are always they for me. Thank you so much. You guys are the best, & i don't regret a thing joining this club. Thank you. ♥

Next, my family members. I remembered them wanting to teach me Salsa especially my elder sister & my mother. Cute, aren't they? But we changed it to Waltz instead. ): & my sister who messaged me good luck for my performance. She's really sweet & i was so touched upon receiving her message before my performance. I love my family! & also to my cousin, who also wished me all the best. & asked me not to be arrogant once i got the title. Cousin, you know me kan. I won't be, don't worry. I love you all! ♥

To my classmates, it's totally okay that you guys can't be there. Cos of CCAs & other stuff but having you guys supporting me behind my back were good enough !. Thank you guys sooooooo much for everything. For having faith in me & my partner too. You guys meant a lot to me. ♥

To the Year 3's who voted for us. Thank You So Much for all of your votes. We appreciate it alot, although it was seriously unexpected because we kinda ruined our dance steps(opps). Cos from Salsa we changed to Waltz. Sorry for the inconvenience ): But despite our ruined dance steps, you guys still cheered for us. Very sweet of the Year Three's. Thanks you guys so much even though i don't know anyone of you. But you guys are the best. Especially this group of Year 3's people who asked me to take picture with them. Thank you. :)

The last person i've to thank is of course my partner, Muhammad Farhat Bamadhaj. I remembered it was YOU who asked me to join this competition. & ii did. You sacrificed a lot of your time for the practice despite having attachments. & we even wanted to give up last minute. Cos it was very stressing & we messed up on our dance on the day itself cos we're too nervous. Before that everything was okay!. Haha. But we never failed to support each other. We've made it this far. & we won unexpectedly. So anyways, thank you for being an awesome partner!. Now we don't have to stress about a thing! ;D

Okay im done with thanking all the people.

The Prom Night was awesome i've to say. NYP became like a clubbing place. Hhaha. But it was fun (Y), i remembered those fun times during NP Open House. ;D & NO to real clubbing please. Hhaha. Ouh! To the other couple contestants, you guys did great! I was mesmerized by your performances. The High School Musical dance was like, WOW. & the playing of guitar & singing from the other couple was like, AWESOME. Seriously!. Can't believe that we actually made a lot of effort for this competition. Congrats to you guys. We are all winners, okay? ;D

Let's talk about my skill assessment test now. It was in the afternoon, lunch hour. So i didn't think about the performance much cos i was worried for my test. I didn't have confidence in myself despite having to know many people failed. I went to school in the morning & was a patient to Namira. I was all nervous even though i was just a patient & need not do anything! Hhaha. Congrats my beloved girls for passing the test. Next, was my turn. I did last minute revision, remember all those tips Azrin told us. Oh yes, i've to thank Azrin, Sarah & some others who gave a little bit of tips for our test. :) & i passed. ;D

So having to pass the skill test & won the Ms SHS all in a day was the most memorable thing that could happened to me yesterday. Thank you all for the great day yesterday. ♥

CGH !.

2010-06-09T00:07:00.000-07:00

setiap kali jumpe korang.
tak pernah tak sah kalau tak ketawe.
macam tadi, kite tiga aje dalam club room.
dah kecohh.. hehehe ^^v
sayang korang many many, kay?
okay. ♥

Okay, i guess my title of this post tells it all. Im attached to CGH. YAY-ed. Short bus ride equals to can wake up late. & yes yes i know.. BOOOOO the hospital because majority seem to look down on this hospital. i've no idea why. & sigh, my late grandmother passed away at that hospital ); );

I don't know why but i seemed to feel so down today. God knows why. I feel like screaming, for i don't know what. I feel like crying, for i don't know what. Too much of laughing? I guess. Til i met my beloved girlfriends also known as my beloved sisters. God knows how much i love them both. Never failed to make me laugh til my stomach hurts. Stayed back til 9pm at club room to do the board for Mr & Ms SHS. Sigh, everytime i mention that, i feel like.... I don't know why but then again, not looking forward to it. & also, not prepared. Die.

Also, Skill test on Friday. It's the only thing im worried about. NOTHING ELSE. It's just the test & upcoming exams. ): ): Im so nervous. I seriously want to do well. Oh why do i even joined it at the first place? Boooooo la. But then again, i'll do my best. & hopefully, God will answer my prayers this Friday. InsyaAllah, Amin.

Im shagged. Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.

MISSING YOU ALWAYS.

2010-06-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's picture.
Love it alot!
Credits to Azrin.
He gave us each a lollipop.
Asked us to pose with it.
He snapped the picture.
& then asked us to put the lollipop back!
Niceee one eh Azrin. Hhahaha. ^^v
Love you guys alot ♥ :)

Today, had kenduri arwah. She's still fresh in my mind. Went there, & stayed in a room. Taught Irah her mathematics & english homework on internet. Grammar, everyone had different answers. Hakim helped too & he disagreed with my answers. Siape yang betul atlast eh cousinku? Hhaha! Hmph! ^^v My other cousin, Mudd, kept calling me minah. Thanks eh ^^v Everytime he sees me, he said, "oi minah". Then hakim laughed. Best? Haha. But i know deep inside he's joking!.

Then they played guitar while i sing along with them & played facebook. It was fun la, seriously. Shamil interfere & he's so cute, pleasee. I miss my nephews so much. Finding the right time to spend my time with them & sleep at my elder sister's house but sigh, busy with school stuff. Must do it before they go Kuala Lumpur to celebrate Shamil's birthday which will fall on 24th of June? 28th? Eh alamak i forgot his birthday. But i know he & i, we are the cancer babies. ^^v Hhaha. Sensitive. Booooo~ Haha. Anyways yeah.. What else? Okay, im jealous of Hakim's phone. See, i admit it. boooo~ hmph. & oh i never compliment this infront of them but seriously, i think my both cousins has sucha nice & incredible voice. Very very nice (Y) I loiike ~

What an awesome weekends. First with friends, then with beloved family ♥

Okay, thats all for today. Tomorrow only an hour lesson. 12-1 then can go home. But im going to school early for a breakfast at macdonalds.! :)

Love you all. Miss you always, nenek.

Take Care & May Peace Be Upon You.